She deserves it and so do I.

so I'm 26 and have had multiple partners but I have never been able to achieve anorgasm or ejaculate. Now I'm currently ina new relationship and same thing. She is unaware that I've never orgasmed becauseI know that she would take it personal not to mention the already shame I feel.. I'veonly ejaculated once with a partner and it was oral but that was also my first partner. So a very long time ago. I'd say I'veprobably masturbated at least once daysince 15? Maybe. The only time I ever went without was during 2 months ofmilitary boot camp. But back on subject I just got into a relationship and I'm going to stop watching porn completely since I'm so used to fantasies and stop masturbating until I can achieve orgasm vaginaly with my partner. That's all I want is that connection. Despite the multiple sexual partners not being able to orgasm during sex just makes you feel like an outcast and ashamed. Sorry for the long introduction and ramble but that's my goal is to gain that sensitivity and be able to share that connection with the person I care about most.