**Been using a journal for my Nofap journey on this site on the 22-24 year old thread. I'm almost 27, and I'd never thought I'd still be on the long, hard journey to freedom. But it is what it is. Here is my continuation.** Just a brief background on myself: I'm 26, Male, currently finishing up medical school in the U.S. Began using porn and PMO since 2007-2008 after being introduced to it by neighbors and have been attempting to quit via Nofap since 2012. Achieved my longest streak of 112 days on my first attempt, but my first relapse destroyed my self-confidence. I've been trying to catch up ever since. Day 0: Just came off from a binge session (which I posted in the relapse report thread). I'm just sick and tired of relapsing over and over. I relapse every 1-3 days; if I'm lucky, I can last almost two weeks. It's fustrating. Over the past year, however, I've been more active in a developing an effective strategy and mindset towards achieving nofap success. This has manifested in me doing the nofap academy course and more recently watching the sexual self mastery series from Mark Quepett. Though these two sources, I've gained a lot of insight into my motivations for using porn, why I want to quit, and what's still holding me back from reaching success. I really want to believe that this time it will be different. Maybe it will. Seems desperate at times, but I can't give up. I need to stay optimistic. Learning from my failures is essential, but I also accept that I've haven't been 100% committed to staying clean. Whether it be due to my own fear of letting go of the comfort that porn has provided me, or my PMO addict brain having a mind of its own through so much sensitization/hypofrontality that I don't even have a say in my decisions anymore...I don't know.... No matter what the cause, I make the solemn pledge to quit PMO for good and live an awesome life - the life that I want. A life filled with greater meaning, purpose, and happiness. I will do whatever it takes, and I welcome the support from this community to help me get there (as I will provide support as well).