SHAME FROM THE PAST ?! HOW TO DEAL WITH IT

Hello guys it's been almost a year since I last watched porn. I won't go into details, but like many here after years and years of porn use i got trapped into the transwoman porn hole. It did escalate into some gay porn too, but mostly transwoman. I even ended up meeting transwoman escorts for 3 times. However I always identified myself as straight - i've been inlove with girls, I find them attractive and whenever I see a sexy girl I would feel like a beast who wants to eat her out. I've always been a masculine guy, sports type who is also regularly going to the gym. I'ts been almost a year since I'm free of porn. During that period I was orgasming pretty often, because I was having a girlfriend, and after we broke up I would have sex with other girls too. Oh, yeah another thing - stopping porn also helped me with ED issues, I had before when I was using it.
So during the year I had ups and downs, I had times when I would feel like Superman and like the king of the wolrd and times when I would feel like shit. I would experience from time to time HOCD thoughts, which I had before starting nofap. Yes, the transwoman porn usage made me quesion my sexuality. So even now when i'm sure that I am attracted to only girls I still have from time to time such thoughts. I would also experience shame - mostly from the times when I would jerk off to such sort of porn and also big anxiety when I think about the times when I met the escorts. I know some people say you should let it go or forgive yourself, but I wanted to share this with you guys. Any ideas/tips or advices, on how to deal with the things we did in the past and stop being bothered by them, so we can enjoy our life in the presence??
Thanks for the time
Good luck brothers!Stay strong!