My husband has low T levels, I have been sexually frustrated for a very long time. We have sex, but not enough for me (I have a very high sex drive) He is seeking treatment. In the meantime, I've masterbated to take care of my own needs. But, I'm consumed with sexual thoughts and consumed with guilt and shame. We've talked about going to marriage counseling as it's put that much of a strain on us. I don't know if trying to abstain from masterbating is right for me or not. On one hand, I've read the benefits (more productivity being the best for me right now) But, what about the downsides in my situation? Sexual deprivation plus not masterbating? I have made it to Nov 9th (trying the ladies form of NoFap November ,so 9 days so far of no masterbating) but I'm already feeling resentment towards my husband. Should I do this in congruence with marriage counseling or not at all? To what extent should I put myself through ignoring my sexual needs in order to be more productive in my life? The only other benefit I can think of is enjoying sex much more when I do have it with my husband, but it's over so quick that I end up resenting that. I'm so lost here.