Self confession

Hi nofap nation I successfully completed 60 days of no PMO hard mode hurrah!!!. I am going to start exercising regularly but now I am regularly walking and that's not enough. I think I am slowly winning the battle against depression and loneliness so I am going to change my journal to self improvement but still I'll post here. Its been a very calm journey I used the word calm bcos I feel very calm now but I have lot to improve my attitude especially towards my parents. I never told to anyone about my PMO addiction except nofap nation. Thanks nofap nation for your invaluable information about porn addiction and also to your brain on porn and Gabe deem they too are doing invaluable service to porn addicts like me once again thank you all. All the best for my 90 day goal and beyond. Only 30 days to go that's exactly one month.

 

Definitely D. J.

 

Hello nofap nation warriors successful 69 days of no PMO hard mode completed. Today I went to park for walking there I saw a cute girl and I stared at her she too stared at me I don't know which word should I use instead of stare so its not staring its more of a curious eye contact. I feel very infatuated or attracted to her but I was scared to go and talk to her. After a longtime I felt something new I don't how to explain that but I think its bcos of no PMO. I don't know tomorrow will I see her or not my wish is obviously want to see her and talk to her. Any advice on how to approach a girl ?

 

“never sound or act desperate”
“So, never hesitate, always show her that you want her, but don't act like you're desperate”
“So, instead of talking to this girl, maybe you know another girl who likes you and you have things in common with, like a hobby”
Great piece of advice pal thanks.

 

After 69days of celibacy I am really attracted to girls not that sexual urge. Its more of a like I never interacted with girls so I just want to talk and know about them. Because really I don't know how it feels to have a female companion of my age. I think I need to be patient and more confident.

 

Today I read a article about porn addiction in that we lost a generation of men to pornography they are called lost generation my doubt in here is am I lost generation because I have been addicted to pornography for the past five years. One more thing frequent porn use leads to child pornography and after years of addiction your brain is hard wired to kinky stuff and you cannot enjoy vanilla sex is this real. have we not rewire our brain ?. After nofap streak I can control the urge but the pictures and videos in my brain keeps popping up spontaneously. My question is how can I forget this and will I enjoy vanilla sex ?

 

And one more thing actors in the porn I used to watch are Europeans and I am different race, ethnicity, culture, language and I never imagined about my own race having sex so is this makes difficult for me to forget about the porn acted by Europeans.

 

I read a lot but in internet not traditional books also watch loads of movies (cinephile) bcos my life's goal is i want to be a filmmaker and I am planning on bodybuilding. Yes I love history especially Indian, american and Japanese histories. I don't eat junk foods or in restaurants. No my sleep pattern is chaotic but I sleep 8hrs a day. Presently I am unemployed. So apart from unemployment I am going in a right direction.

 

I immediately need motivation today I accidentally saw two topless pictures now I feel vulnerable but not on the verge of relapse so what should I do please motivate me in this long term journey

 

pls watch this video of Ran Gavrieli I feel enlightened after watching this video. If already watched this pls watch it one more time. it feels liberating for those who are battling porn addiction.

 

Hi nofap nation its a 77 days of no PMO hard mode yesterday I had a wet dream but still my morning woods are weak but one day I had a very strong and painful morning wood. Now I think I can be celibate I.e., no PMO hard mode for 365 days. When I see a sexually provocative images still I feel that urge but now I can easily control and forget it. I don't know if I can masturbate naturally after one year but I think I should have to find out. As a matter of fact I never want to masturbate till the end of my life. All the best for my journey.

 

Just now relapsed please give me a advice

 

I am scared, highly depressed I don't know what to do please some one help me