Some people think I'm nuts, and some seem to try to lead me astray. My goal is to avoid orgasm and emission at all costs, as best I can . . . forever. Like an alcoholic who can not drink ever again, I am an orgasm addict. I am not seeking to be a monk. I want to find a life-time partner and practice Karezza. Orgasm is the root of all my sexual troubles. All these behaviours spiralled way out of control but trying to keep them all in check is futile and hasn't worked so far. I believe the solution (for me) is: No orgasm or emission at all costs Nurturing care and support from many sources A karezza based committed monogamous relationship If you have the same goals, or if you can fully support me with these goals, I would love to check in on an (almost) daily basis. *not interested in checking in via text, WhatsApp or some medium other than the messaging feature of NoFap ** male, female or other gender identity is okay *** I do use a chastity device, as little as possible. Ultimately I would like to do this without extrinsic constraints, but I am willing to go to any lengths to avoid orgasm and emission.