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Scared of my fetishes

Discussion in 'Rebooting in a Relationship' started by Bacon21, May 4, 2017.

  1. Bacon21

    Bacon21 Fapstronaut

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    Im on day 24 no PM, (had sex on day 20). On the 20th day the sex was great. I was really happy with how I performed and everyone was satisfied. 3 days later, we did it again, and I failed miserable to keep it up (got it, but it died). So now I have anxiety about going forward. I have some serious kink fetishes (if she ever cheated on me it would just turn me on, i would never leave her for something like that), and a strong desire to act out in my cuckold/swinging fetishes. But she is extremely vanilla. I love the girl so much, we are compatible in every other way, and if it weren't for the sexual differences, I would have made her my wife already. I dont want to lose her, but I also don't want to be unsatisfied forever.

    Ive read that when you have a fetish like that, it can't be suppressed. That trying to do that has unhealthy consequences. But Ive also read that it's possible. Should I be so worried this early in a reboot? Does anyone else have experience with this?
     
  2. Bacon21

    Bacon21 Fapstronaut

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    Welp, update, i relapsed. Thinking about her cucking me. I have to tell her now. And ths guilt is bad. Why did I do it? Im ruining our relationship. Im ruining everything.
     
  3. MaxHeadroom

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    There are plenty of people that have normal healthy relationships that include living a cuck lifestyle. While I have never personally experienced that, I have friends that have and they have amazing relationships with their wives. In order for these fantasies you have to work in real life however, you have to have the right like minded partner that is also into it otherwise your partner will run from you or will try it and feel guilt and resentment towards you for having bent the rules regarding her morals/ethics sexually speaking.
     
  4. Bacon21

    Bacon21 Fapstronaut

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    How can i just forget i have this fetish and just be turned on by her? Is this even possible?
     
  5. MaxHeadroom

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    It is hard to just forget something and move on from it once your mind has been programmed to desire something for so long. It is it's own addiction. You just have to ask would this fetish hurt you, your relationship or otherwise be unhealthy? Have a talk with her about it and see where she stands. You don't even have to outright come out and say you want to do it or have a fetish for it. You can bring the topic up and gauge her reaction to it and go from there.
     
  6. It is possible. Abstain from the fetish. To me this sounds like it's a Porn Indiced fetish. I'm not 100% sure, as I really didn't take proper note of this. However, I think around day 30 was when I noticed that a lot of the creepy fetish part of my addiction was gone. For a little while, I would always "cringe" every time I remembered what I use to M to.

    But, even that has calmed down now and I don't cringe anymore.

    Hope this helps. Good luck.
     
  7. Chris14

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    Hey @Juelz I'm in the exact situation just st add pegging and any fetishist along those lines. As far as the pied don't have sex so close together yet give it a week or 2 in between if that doesn't work give it more time and j know it's hard but try not to stress and over think it. As far as the fetish goes is that what you wanted the first time you heard of it. How long did you watch vanilla porn before going to cuckold. Only you can answer the question if that's your fetish or a porn induced fetish. I just think if you love your SO this much that you don't want the fetishist then just enough time away will make the fetishist fade. Try this go 30 days no pmo then have sex with your SO then ask yourself if you want that or the fetish. No one can truly know their desires when they are deep into a porn addiction. As far as the relapse just tell her and talk to her about how you where triggered and keep on trying. Best of luck to you
     
  8. John84

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    You have to see it like this, you know the fetish will get you aroused. Its because those pathways in your brainchemistry and wired together and strong. You wanna build a new pathway, and have that old one disconnected. So you have to work at it by abstaining from it and building the new pathway.
     

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