Mindy, 13 days is actually pretty good. especially under stress; it can be hard to go that long. As for the rest of what you wrote about... I think you might have a bit more of a testimony than you realize. Remember what Alma said? If you have no more than a particle of faith, so small that the best you can do is DESIRE to believe, that's still a starting point. All you have to do is let that desire work in you. Even more relevant, I think, is what Jesus Himself said in the New Testament. He said that if your faith is so small that it's comparable to no more than a grain of mustard seed, that's still enough faith to move mountains. I think you still have a testimony, even if it's buried deep, deep down and seems to be lying dormant. That may be mustard-seed sized faith, but again, read what our Savior said about that. Sometimes you just need to have faith in your own faith. You have faith. You have a testimony. And you will make it! I'm not giving that as an opinion! God bless you!