Woah. That's you? You look absolutely amazing! You look like Mallory from Studio C! I'm sorry to hear about the relapse. I am not a regular in Netflix myself, but I know how a media service can sometimes provide triggering things when you least expect them. It's a good thing you have taken the time to identify triggers. Have you begun thinking of ways to adapt to them? You can't exactly remove the urge to pee so you'll have to be creative with this one. I hope you can find a good guy who will love you as much as you love him. Nobody should have to be alone. Best of luck!