Rewiring Bad Connections

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by slickwolf, Dec 7, 2018 at 5:22 PM.

  1. slickwolf

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    Hey, I'm 20 and I watched porn when I was a little kid, accidentally, and I didn't pay much attention to it. I was actually disgusted by it but as I grew up, I became curious about what I saw when I was a kid then I rediscovered porn when I was 15. At boarding school, a few of my friends were talking about masturbation and how pleasurable they found it. I became curious and tried it for myself and ever since then, I've been addicted. It has robbed me of so much, because to this day, I'm still single and I have ruined many chances I had to find true love and happiness just because the women around me didn't look like the models I had become too familiar with watching. I lost my motivation for life and became lazy, I lost a lot of weight and now I have social anxiety and other effects of PMO. A few months ago, I came across nofap and though I haven't had a large streak going yet, my last streak of 7 days is my longest in a quite some time. I relapsed a few times but my last relapse felt like a wake up call. I've got a few months left until I go off to college and I have to get myself clean before I do. I'm going for 90 days with no PMO. I'm on Day 3, wish me luck :)
     
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  2. Epic Fight

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    Stay strong younger brother, you on a right path. The realization you made, is very important. And you made it very early in your life, compared to me. High five for that! Stay strong and kick some PMO ass! I wish you all the best!! If you have any hard times, or need help, reply to me and I will try my best to give you a meaningful advice. Im here my 2nd year now.
     
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    Thanks, for the support :) talking about PMO openly feels weird because I've never opened up but I'll definitely ask if I need help fighting. Congrats on going that far, I hope I can get to 2 years as well :)
     
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    Day 3,
    I didn't smash through my goals today but I can't complain, it's been a good day overall. No urges just positivity all round earlier in the morning. I could talk to people without second guessing most of the words.....I think it's because I didn't binge this time. If you're reading this and you've relapsed, don't binge, it's a trap.... Keep fighting. There was one negative though, in the evening, a few toxic friends tried to intimidate me and make me feel stupid about my PMO addiction. They found out a year ago and they tried to get inside my head today, taunting and mocking me in subtle ways. I'm trying to quit so I wonder why it bothered me. I couldn't even stand up for myself because I'm still not speaking 100% confidently but I felt like that was a step backwards so I'm cutting those idiots off, anything that threatens my self confidence might cause me to lose respect for myself and PMO again. Still, I can't help feeling like a beta male and I don't know if it's the PMO or my personality, either way that just made want to quit PMO even more.
     
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  6. Epic Fight

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    Good job, get rid of them indeed! Such ppl dont belong into your life. You need ppl who will support you.
     
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  7. slickwolf

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    It hurts but it has to be done. Thanks Epic Fight!
     
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    Day 4, the mental fog is slowly disappearing, I feel shraper, more confident and happier, great way to start this week.
     
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    Good for you mate, I wish you the best
     

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