Yeah, I guess this is a pretty hard time for you right now. It's easy (and honestly quite understandable) to relapse with all of these feelings you're having. A lot of things are changing and you're pretty scared and it feels like you're on your own. I'm sorry you have to fell them. It would be easier to just blow your streak now and to numb the feelings. You don't need to reset to those feelings though. For so long we've avoided those kinds of feelings by PMOing, and since we're abstaining we have to deal with a bunch of new things we haven't had much experience with. You aren't alone in this though. You've got readers who would be happy to help you out and you're very strong. I know you won't let these get to you too badly. And if they do, that's okay, because I will still be just a PM away, if you need a shoulder. Good luck and take care. We appreciate the things you have done for us, we're ready to return the favor.