Religious Overcoming Porn

Hey all,

I'm New here, but it's not the first time i tried to quit porn.

I'm religious, and every time i fall back to porn i feel a Huge Guilt. I feel weak and loose all my self confidence. It's always hard for me psychologically. I feel social anxiety and i'm no longer comfortable with social interaction. This is literally destroying me.

I'm 25 now and i used to be a porn addict in my adolescence. I did overcome porn multiple times in my life, but i did fall back into it each time.

I never had sexual intercourse for religious reasons, and now i'm looking forward getting married. But i'm ashamed of the thought of being a porn addict.. I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone about it. I feel like i'm a disgusting person.

Now I'm not a regular viewer of porn. It happens once every two weeks. And i watch it for 30 minutes maximum. But still i consider it as an addiction since i have the same symptoms of urge.

I'm using all kind of Filters in my computer and phone but i always find ways to look at dirty pictures (even in google image hhhhhh). Just yesterday i found a way of passing through the filters and getting to the Porn sites. As much as i feel Genius about it i feel A LOT OF GUILT.

The solution is definitely not filters but rewiring my brain once and for all. I hope i will get through this with the help of the community.

I love the idea of a bunch of people helping each other fighting the same cause regardless of religion, race, color..

We're all gonna make it !

Muslim Peace,

 

Thank you @LongWayToGo For your reply