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Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by cornhusker07, Oct 3, 2013.

  1. cornhusker07

    cornhusker07 Fapstronaut

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    Couldn't last even two days. I couldn't help myself being alone at home and so I relapsed due to the stress of school.
     
  2. benignintenz

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    Stress definitely will get me as well. I have found it helpful to replace the danger times where I am exposed to temptation with other activities that get me far away from it. For me, this means jumping on the rowing machine, or bicycle and going for a ride. Clears the head, kills the stress and might get you over that first 2-5 days where it is the hardest to get traction.
     
  3. cornhusker07

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    I think I found my key to not relapsing, this led me through 3 months without relapsing.

    What helped me was developing a schedule of my entire week. Planned everything out from sleeping, eating to social activities. I think because I was so distracted by following my schedule that I had no room to think about anything else. I didn't have to worry about when I would workout because it was already planned based on the events that week. We'll see how it goes. It seems like my life was missing structure.

    The reason I relapsed after the three months later is because I stopped using the weekly schedule I developed in excel. But it helped so much!
     
  4. cornhusker07

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    Day number 2, so far so good! I never really felt any strong urges. I just sat back, went about my day. When stressful situations came along, I thought them through, drank some green tea and moved along. It was a very productive day--especially given my situation.

    Now that I have planned out my entire week with an excel file developed, nothing really comes of surprise because it's all mapped out. I also have ways of countering this stress through the exercise time I blocked out, therefore as long as I follow my schedule I won't have any problems, no relapsing for me :)
     
  5. benignintenz

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    Sounds like a good method and progress. Keep it up!
     
  6. Indeed keeping a schedule works wonders. Keep to it, and also don't forget to schedule even free time! all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy :)
     
  7. cornhusker07

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    Day 5:
    So far so good. Very little thoughts of relapsing. Had my share of stressful moments, but kept my mind clean and away from situations in which I was prone to relapsing. No real strong urges either which is great.

    Made it through my first weekend with flying colors. Onto the next one, just got to make it to Friday, then I'll gain even more momentum on this path.
     
  8. cornhusker07

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    Day 6 Still Going

    Day 6, and still strong. Haven't felt as empowered as I did during the weekend, however I'm not feeling any really strong urges to relapse.

    Kept close to my schedule. Got my weekly tasks completed early. I'm ready for another very productive weekend. Next week is going to be a true stress test based on the events.

    I've got to keep moving forward no matter the obstacle. Put the past relapsing out of my mind and not even think about it. I suppose I don't really feel the mentally clarity until I get deeper into this challenge, I would say right now, although I feel very few urges my mind is a little fuzzy due to this new path I'm embarking on.
     
  9. cornhusker07

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    Day 8

    Day 8:
    Had a busy week but made it through. Now for the weekend. My mind feels a little cloudy.

    No real big urges to relapse, trying to get through these next few weeks of school. Not feeling anxious about relapsing just want to make it through to December to the promise land and freedom from school.

    I am ready to change my life around and free myself from relapsing. So I'm taking it day by day. Here we go into the weekend.
     
  10. cornhusker07

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    Day 9 almost to Double Digits w/o relapsing

    A little cloudy today. Still kept strong regardless of the amount of stress induced from studying. Felt no big urges.

    More focused on feeling better as I have the flu. Relaxed and took breaks when I needed today. Ready for another great day and ready to finally break into double digits without relapsing. This next week is going to be a little rough. I just need to make it to Wednesday, then it's all downhill stress from there. Also make sure I workout in between that time.

    It seems like if I workout my mind becomes more focused and in tuned with what tasks need to be done today.
     
  11. cornhusker07

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    Realization

    I never realized what porn has done to my relationship. It never really dawned on me, it's effects or subtleness in regards to fights between me and my girlfriend.

    I believe it has made me more insecure in that although, I may think I'm "telling a joke" to my girlfriend that maybe she is having second thoughts about me, in actuality this isn't a joke. And when she takes these jokes seriously, like any normal human-being should, it's actually hurting my relationship. These things remarks I make are not funny and should not be said.

    Porn in a way I guess has removed my filter that prevents me from saying stupid and hurtful things. I always just thought these were things that normal couples fought over. But NO they are not! I need to work on not saying these dumb things that get me in trouble and make my girlfriend feel insecure. I'm lucky enough she even forgives me.

    So this day is definitely an eye opener as to an underlying problem. Good thing I'm on this challenge, I'm waking up to a lot of problems that need to be fixed.
     
    Last edited: Oct 13, 2013
  12. cornhusker07

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    Day 12

    Today my brain is a little fuzzy. Whether it be the fact that I'm on my 12th day or because of the amount of stress that I'm under due to school. Because I no longer seek masturbation under stress, my mind is probably trying to reformat itself to think other ways of relieving stress.

    So hurray me I'm building momentum in this challenge, however I'm finally feeling the effects of change/feeling some urges - I think.

    :D
     
    Last edited: Oct 15, 2013
  13. Dominoking

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    Day 6 for me. I been in a major funk the pass few days. I've suffered from depression before, but this is different. I went as far as to delete my Facebook page because I'm tired of seeing how happy other people are. Just saying. I have been giving more women longer eye contact the pass few days, so I think this nofap crap is actually working.
     
  14. cornhusker07

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    Day 13

    Feeling urges but not giving in because I know this is the hard part of my journey. I know that at some point these urges will die off. I know that in the first week my brain acted as though this was just a phase I was going through and sooner or later I would give in. However now that I am nearly two weeks in, it's saying "HELLO! You need to relapse and make me temporarily feel better!" So with the stress of school and my brain trying to give me signals to relapse, right about now I feel beaten up.

    I can say that I am clearer to a certain extent, but I also feel anxious. I just need to take things one day at a time, workout, and come to my senses whenever I feel an urge to relapse. Hurray me for being nearly 2 weeks in without relapsing!
     
  15. cornhusker07

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    Day 17

    Probably the most difficult task of not relapsing is fighting off urges between the times I visit my girlfriend every few weeks as we are in a long distance relationship. But as I gain more momentum in this challenge I feel less and less inclined to relapse or look/feel urges to look at porn or masturbate.

    Being more than 2 weeks on feels pretty good. My mind is clearer and I have more feelings. It feels like the real me is coming out each day I gain in this challenge. I survived one of the roughest weeks I've had so far this month. Can't wait till the NBA season begins cause then I'll have even more things to distract me from those previous bad habits. I hope to get to the point when I don't even mention relapsing or think about. To get to a point when I just completely act as if it doesn't exist.

    Hurray me, 17 days down!
     
    Last edited: Oct 20, 2013
  16. montystone

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    awesome cornhusker, 17 days and your well on your way. I use to love watching the NBA until lebron left my team. Shame shame.
     
  17. cornhusker07

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    Day 19

    Day 19 has been pretty fuzzy. It seems like my mind is racing trying to find some way to make me relapse. So instead of relapsing I worked out and removed myself from any place that triggered these behaviors. I just have to make it to the weekend before I can fully relax.

    I know there's only good at the end of this challenge and in the months to come. Just have to power through and remind myself of why I'm doing this!
     
  18. Blue

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    I admire your resolve.
     
  19. cornhusker07

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    Day 20

    Feeling much clearer today. Less stressed, actually feel like I'm accomplishing a lot. Day 20 without relapsing. What's helped me is not being on Facebook/Twitter/any social networking site.

    Of course I still have to maintain my workout schedule!

    It's smooth sailing from now till the weekend. I just have to make it to next week and it will finally be November! I'll be that much closer to school finally being over!

    Hurray me Day 20, and still strong!
     
  20. cornhusker07

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    Day 21

    Day 21, my mind is a little fuzzy. Felt some urges to relapse, but I removed myself from the situation-went outside for a few minutes. So far so good. Just need to get some momentum and productivity on my side as I enter the weekend.

    Day 21 and still resisting any urges! I have achieved so much this far into the challenge, can't stop now!
     

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