I relapsed last night. I don't even really know why. I talked to my friend for a few hours. Got off the phone and immediately pulled my junk out. Then I went to apple music and looked up erotic audio and fapped to it. It sucks that it seems I will do whatever to get the dopamine rush. I think I got triggered when my friend sent me pictures of his girlfriend. I'm thinking its the novelty of a girl I barely know. I also noticed that I am not challenging my negative thoughts. I think about having sex with women often. I think about having sex with my neighbor. I think about having sex with my boss. I really need to manage my thoughts. Its not okay for the women and its not okay with my wife. I havent been unfaithful in action, but I have been unfaithful in my thoughts. Whats that quote your thoughts become actions, actions habits, habits character, character destiny. So I must do better.