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Relapse? - Reset my counter

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Deleted Account, Aug 27, 2018.

  1. Had a hands free orgasm on Sunday morning. Somehow I wanted it.

    Maybe not a real relapse in the sense that I went back to old habits of watching porn and rubbing it off. Anyway I reset my counter to see how frequent this will happen and if I need to control more my morning erections. So far I simply enjoyed them as long as they would last. but maybe even this is too much.

    Today I almost relapsed. Put off the porn blocker and typed the name of a site. When the results pulled up I sat there for a minute. Everything was just a click away. Finally I closed the tab and reset the porn blocker thinking 'You have done this before and this will kill you.'

    Started to reflect how my mind gets triggered. The worst thing are those small frustrations using the internet. If a password for a normal shopping site doesn't work I am getting really frustrated because it takes always so much time to get finally acces to it. Often waiting times are required which I used in the past to look at other stuff and numb my mind over the frustrations. My real enemy is the internet.

    So I am trying now to reduce it to the bare minimum. This includes as well to appear here on NoFap only once a week for a (hopefully) progress report and some reflections. See you all next Monday. Good luck for everyone!
     
  2. TheodoreCleaver

    TheodoreCleaver Fapstronaut

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  3. innermostheart

    innermostheart Fapstronaut

    Hi Jazz. Sharing your story requires guts and courage so thanks for being honest...
    It is really nice to live a honest truthful life than living in lie with shame and guilt...
    We will recover soon.
     

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