I've been offline for awhile, trying to manage on my own. Went through a lot of ups and downs, had a couple trial streaks. Then something clicked near the end of September, and I managed to keep up a 60+ day streak. But toward the end of those 60 days, I found myself slowing re-engaging my old habits.... Lingering a little too long on triggering things.... Seeking out and talking to past sexual partners... Then I slowly started delving back into soft-sexting. That lead to sex dreams, which lead to soft-porn searching on social media. Which lead to today when I met up with a guy. All of this to say, I still haven't MO'ed in like 70 days. And I haven't had sex in monthsssss. But I did spend one day viewing porn, and I very nearly had sex with a toxic ass dude. So I'm gonna soft-reset myself because I'm better than this and I can't allow myself to make provisions for the flesh. If I keep up my behavior, soon I'll end up just as pitiful as I was 3yrs ago-- binging porn for hours, sexting multiple men, camming, etc. That cannot and will not happen. I was in full regression mode for a moment there, but that ends now.