Rediscovering the 11 year old me

Hello fellow Fapstronauts,

I have been masturbating since I was 13 years old and have been doing it since. I discovered fapping all by myself so it added the effect that "masturbation is normal, natural and healthy". I agreed with this notion. Years passed and I went in the later years of teen. I used to masturbate to chicks found in newspapers, magazines, tv shows, anywhere I could find. And then came the internet broadband connection...

The road down this memory lane does not need a narrative.

In college I used to say to my friends "masturbation is normal". And when they used to say that it makes you weak. I was like "what the fuck is he talking about?"

I am an eye-rapist for women, My fetishes are a total shit due to porn, I feel like a monstrous rapist due to what porn has done to me.
Then I read an article somewhere where it said -

" If God did not wanted us to not masturbate, he would have made our hands shorter." - Bullshit.

I have never been on nofap before. My longest streak had been 4 - 5 days for the past 13 years. Now I am 25 and in a very crucial stage of my life. My future is dependent on this.

It is with great pride and honour to tell you that I have started on nofap journey and has been 21 days at the time of this writing.

What I want out of nofap? Like my status says "rediscovering the 11 year old myself"
And the most important of all I really want to know women as to what they are. For years I really didn't deserve women because of my thinking. Now my mind is changing, I can feel it, I am seeing my thought process have changed drastically, I do not objectify women anymore, which only reinforces the fact that I want to love them for what they are. I want their feminine energy to be my privilege. I want to dive into the ocean of these Venus beings.

I think this following picture will make it clear :



That god damn right. I feel like God.

Now I am channelizing all my energy in learning different skills. Just focus on being the right man and you will find the right girl of your dreams.

There is so much more I want to say, will share in future. I am busy enjoying freedom.

 

I have not made any strategies as of yet. Just refraining from opening any porn or looking at women in a sexual way.
Right now I am able to do this with ease as the will to do is way high. Moreover my parents are out for the past 10 days. The earlier version of myself would have jumped on this opportunity like a beast, I would have watched porn all day and fapped around like a little bitch.
I am glad to say they are due to come back tomorrow and I will feel a sense of accomplishment that I didn't give in to my addiction in their absence and to free internet.
I don't know what the future holds for me in this fight, but I feel like a warrior, I will not give in to porn. Fuck porn.