Well I haven't watched any porn but I have had sex and mb'ed. I don't feel particularly bad about this at the moment but I know it will catch up with me. I had sex with two men in the same night. I was drunk and starving for intimate attention so I picked up a guy and brought him home. He didn't last very long and I was dissatisfied so I called this person who has been my go to since relocating. He picked me up and I spent the rest of the weekend at his house. I told him the next day that I had been with someone else the night before and how I felt disturbed by my behavior in the light of day. He was very nonchalant and said there's nothing wrong with having sex. He seems to think that my connection with religion is to blame for my desire to transform my sexuality and it is a valid thought but not the whole truth. Being around him has helped to confirm for me that sex without love is as mundane as taking a shit once you've done it enough times. His lack of spirituality outside of sexual ecstasy is a cause for concern. There are many things I don't like about him and yet I've shared myself in the ultimate way. He doesn't value physical health or spirituality. Whenever I try to encourage him to give the benefit of the doubt he always sees the negative in a situation looming. I have decided to stop seeing him because he has a tendency to raise his voice when I don't give him what he feels entitled to (attention, agreement,etc). I have mb'ed after a long week of change and hard work and I don't feel guilty. I will remain conscious of my goals to transform my sexuality and work towards allowing this change to happen.