Real World Weeks

Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by Rising Force, Mar 8, 2019.

  1. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    My mind is consistently telling me lies about psubs. I refuse to believe them.
     
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  2. Christian Fox

    Christian Fox Fapstronaut

    I believed them.
    1 + 0/7
     
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  3. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    Well, what did they promise to you this time?
     
  4. Christian Fox

    Christian Fox Fapstronaut

    Nothing. They can't. They just demanded that I listen (it was asmr, I hate that stuff, but still it can turn on). When I started listening, my brain was turned off (like in "turn off the computer") and I went to autopilot.
     
  5. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

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    An obvious reset for me as well.
     
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  6. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    Escaped again into fantasies, so another reset follows. The day is not done yet, so I must make sure that this is not an excuse to start searching for psubs.
     
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  7. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    And I couldn't do this. No, I just didn't do this. There was no reason why I couldn't do it.

    Psubs are to fill the void left behind by porn. It's still porn. I need to make a proper reset.
     
  8. Christian Fox

    Christian Fox Fapstronaut

    1 + 1/7
    Getting back on track.
     
  9. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    2 + 1/7

    Getting on the right track feels good. It's a relief compared to the struggle you create for yourself by distracting your mind with fantasies.
     
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    Christian Fox Fapstronaut

  11. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    2 + 0/7

    Too many brief oglings.
     
  12. bashka

    bashka Fapstronaut

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  13. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    2 + 1/7

    Even though the whole day would have been smooth and fine, the time when you go to bed is going to be a test. It's best to be tired that time.
     
  14. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    2 + 2/7

    Be busy! Fantasies won't keep up.
     
  15. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    2 + 3/7

    Finding a good rhythm.
     
  16. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    2 + 4/7

    Very clean day.
     
  17. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    2 + 5/7

    Do yourself a massive favor and don't start entertaining any what-if-just-one-look thoughts.
     
  18. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

  19. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

    2 + 0/7

    I kept on reading some triggering stuff, so I can't possibly count this day as successful. A completed week was again so close.
     
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  20. Rising Force

    Rising Force Fapstronaut

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    I got yet again a great lesson that I must not slip from my standards. If you start slipping, more and more trouble will follow. This is such an unstable ground that we're walking on.

    After reading that bullshit yesterday, my state of mind weakened in such a way that I welcomed fantasies in the evening and next morning. I even searched for psubs later.

    Searching for psubs is something I never get away from without a punishment. It's amazing how looking at a picture will disturb you. I feel so awkward and tense. I don't think it matters so much what the content of your psubs are. It's more about the decision to start searching. The rush it creates feels horrible.
     

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