I've been in chats with people for a while now. I've decided that this is the best place to be as I know you'll understand more than my current circle. For years now my husband has had a porn addiction. For years I've been asking him to stop, then telling him to do so and he always bring out the same old lines. I want to change, I love you, I'll work at it, and for years, no change. I don't want to leave him, and my life, behind, but at the same time I don't believe he's ever going to change and I am starting to hate myself because I just can't understand why I'm not good enough. Even when he tries to touch me now, I can't face it. Who or what is he thinking of instead of me? Why is the Internet the release instead of his wife. Is he even trying because he wants me or because he thinks it'll shut me up harping at him. It's affected me mentally, I'm starting to hate who I am, what I am and I just can't cope any more. He won't talk, he lies, he stays alone after I go to bed and I just know what he's doing and it tears me up inside a little bit more. My chat circle have told me to leave him, but I really don't want to have to do that. It's so close though, but I have no one else to turn to any more. I just am at the end of my rope and sinking fast. Is there ever really light at the end of the tunnel with this, or do I just give up now... Sorry to be a downer, I just had to get this off my chest where I'll be understood.