Reached a Year, but a very abrupt ending

Well folks I said I was aiming for a year and I'm happy to say the goal has been reached. I'm not as happy as I thought however, because about 2 hours after I reached a year, I ended up relapsing.

I asked myself beforehand when I finished, how long can I last for now, seems like not very long at all. I think the triumph let the urges in and got the better of me.

I am pleased of course for being able to stay clear from PMO for one whole year, but really, I could have carried on for a while longer.

I was intending on getting myself something as a reward for completing a year, but now I don't feel like I ought to. What do you guys think?

I think I'll be taking a small break now for a week or so until I have another go at abstaining, but it won't be for as long as this one.

Another question is, even though I reached a year, is it still worth posting something to the Success page?

Thanks everyone!

 

Thanks for that dude.

I think it has done. I think the best advantage I got was I that I realised porn, masturbating or orgasming aren't too important to me. Even though I broke in the end, I've got enough strength to be clear of it for a good amount of time. The other advantage was I was able to occupy myself very well doing other things and enjoy them more. What I will be able to remember though is that I was capable of doing something I told myself that I wasn't able to do. I said several times that I'd draw a line doing the challenge for a year. I thought it was too much. But I did it and I am very proud that I was able to pull through. It was supposed to be for a few months!

 

I don't know to be honest with you. I'll be doing the challenge again very soon so I'll see if I notice it.

 

Glad to answer these questions.

• I was abstaining from porn, masturbating and orgasming. So hard mode I think. However not watching porn was most important to me.
• No it wasn't.
  
• I think the one thing to remember is the urges can be worse than one can imagine. I need to really make sure not to give in.
  
• I feel that I've learnt that I don't need porn, masturbating and orgasming always. I know for a good amount of time I can go without. Even if I took a break, I know when I go back, it won't bother me too much. I won't miss any of it too much.
• Self-discipline definitely. I know that's one goal I've achieved and I'm glad I have. I can easily tell myself now I don't need it always. They aren't a big deal. The other goal really was for me to just complete it. It means now I can say, I did a year. That will stay with me for a long time.

 

Just correcting one answer. The question to if I relapsed with porn is, no it wasn't, however it was in my mind. I don't know whether that counts or not.

 

I think so. I know that I'll be okay without Porn, masturbation or orgasming for a good amount of time. I won't need it all the time. There may be occasions where I return to it, but it won't be all the time and it won't bother me if I don't watch porn, masturbate or orgasm for a good amount of time again. In short, it won't take over my life.