Quitting Masturbation cold turkey

I have had numerous addiction and smoking was one....I quit smoking couple of years back cold turkey and kept a count till 140 days after which I was totally disengaged with the activity...Similarly I want to quit masturbation cold turkey....I feel totally shocked and disgraced that porn and masturbation has taken over my life and my fight starts now....I am pretty focussed and motivated on not quitting nofap and am looking for a permanent quit mode rather than rediscovery of myself...I had few relapses while smoking deaddiction and I always realised that the second time you smoke more so relapsing is absolutely no option...I will post the progress...Right now is its day 0 and I expect numbers getting added to left pretty soon. I know there are lots of differences I will see in the two journey especially in terms of availability...porn and masturbation is something you always have where as cigarette you needed to buy....also lot of people supported me in cigarette deaddiction and here I won't find anyone.....but I feel these are all excuses I would use if I fail...what I am striving is success...wish me luck for success.... I will post regularly in early days...

 

Thanks bro....Day1 update...quite easy not an issue...no porn or any soft of softcore content came in my way....I was so so busy that not a single dirty thought came in my mind....The fight is gonna be easy till the weekend....planning not to booze party on weekend as first few days are vulnerable...Also can't get bored else I will have triggers...will need to find something constructive....

 

Day 2: super easy....I had so much to do at work that no dirty thought came... I feel that this time it's gonna work and I will be able to quit PMO...I was watching YouTube and was going to get some triggers but ignored....Now I have the big task as I have 2 days of weekend and I don't have much things to do...so I have to beat these 2 days of boredom...

 

Day 3: Saturday was not easy....I had an entire day free and I was not supposed to look at Porn...I watched 3 movies so that i dont feel lonely and succumb. Somehow kept me busy or wasted a lot of time but did not give up....I am writing this on a Sunday and Sunday looks pretty good and I do not have any triggers. Whenever I feel like I should watch porn or masturbate I imagine the guilt that I will have and do not get defeated. My energy levels are bit upped and I am thinking a lot positively. I have milestones in my mind such as 1 week and then 10 days. I have a goal of indefinite nofap and I'm going to get there without relapses.

 

Day 4: the day was not that difficult...I was hardmode for the whole day...I'm getting few desires but i"m curbing them...I'm totally avoiding any hard pornography but while watching movies and TV series sex scene keep popping up....it's really difficult to avoid such content...I'm trying to ignore...I'm sure I'm not succumbing to the situation...I read a lot of article on withdrawl symptoms and it demotivated me a bit but I saw it could be case on case basis so I'm going to wait till they arrive and not worry till then...

 

Day 5: The day went ok.....lots of work no distraction.....I feel bored with the option of watching porn gone away. I feel a lot hungry these days....Maybe I'm supplementing the lack of dopamine with food...Anyone else experience similar things???
Planning for a vacation this weekend to get rid of the boredom. I'm waiting for some differences in my life good or bad with each day passing...I dont think I will have withdrawl symptoms as I'm so busy in the week that i hardly have time to think....

 

Day 6-7 I was super busy yesterday so could not post. So day 6 was not challenging but day 7 was...I am on hard mode for PMO but there is a debate inside me regarding the part of softcore. Sometimes I feel that I can watch some sexy scene bikini body and other but then I feel it might derail me...but then my mind tells me that I have that strength to stop.. Also comes a fundamental question of what I am trying to achieve here...I wanted not to masturbate which I am not doing but did I want to make my mind erotic free....Is there a dopamine rush happening if I watch a bikini model and am I disrupting the process of rewiring...These thoughts and debate are making me weak and confused...Maybe these are the start of my withdrawl symptoms...

 

Day10: So yeah I'm trying hard....I was on a trip for 2-3 days so did not post...still running the nofap journey...went into serene nature with no access to internet and realized how much I'm addicted to phone...I m avoiding all arousing content but its difficult in this world....I keep getting these content and sometimes i feel so helpless....not watching hardcore porn and ofcourse nofap...
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Any difference in first 10 days
1. 10% more energy
2. looking for replacement of porn so I have watched loads of documentary and movies...some of them changed my perspective toward things. I watched
DON'T PANIC — Hans Rosling showing the facts about population
The Brain that changes itself
Facing the fat

pretty awesome documentary and talks.

3. I have much more time

I dont see any huge physical or mental changes. Looking forward to next target 15 days

 

Day 10-13: Somedays are easy somedays are hard...I feel like taming my minds and desire...sometimes they win sometimes me...On Day12 I had a huge urge of sexual desire and I finally had to use the panic button. Quitting porn is just too difficult...but i can see if i dont completely stop it someday i might relapse. On my porn viewing habit let me tell you I watch porn once in a 4-5days to see if i'm having any flatline or any withdrawl symptoms...Everything looks fine till now no withdrawl symptoms..

Any positive change: I feel less irritated. I feel a bit more confident and removing the inferiority complex. I have been social but I'm feeling more comfortable in social environment...I guess my self esteem is improving...

still a long journey to go and i will complete it....

 

Good luck meganmcc...hope you are cruising the journey, the first few days are pretty difficult...cold turkey is usually the best way to quit and you did it correctly....stay motivated and good luck for the bumpy journey

 

plateau maybe after a long time but you will be used to bumpy rides...wont hurt much as days go by...its like a dark night where things will go darker and dawn will happen after the darkest hour....so anytime you feel like quitting remember the dawn is near...and i love the feeling of beating fapping habit everyday.....

 

Day 14-15 easy days with less urges....lots of work at job ....so much work that i could not have food , forget urges.......day 15 has passed....cant believe 15 days....just read that semen takes 40 days to build....i will reach 40 days this time easily

 

nice...why dont you share your journey too.....start a thread....

 

Day 16-17: So I am on day 17 and I have been thinking a lot on nofap...I have a lot of urges and I question myself why am I hiding them...my goal is no porn no masturbation and no orgasm....I'm not watching porn (no hardcore stuff and trying to avoid erotic content) not masturbating or having orgasm....but I get hard on in so many situations like watching bikini girl in movie and I can't just stop it and even sometime seeing hot girl in real life....now if I just curb all these feeling that does not seem natural...the hard on goes away in few seconds to minutes...

And I have been reading people having sex during nofap...I feel that's bullshit...they have orgasmed...so it's not PMO...it's good I don't have a partner else I could have never done nofap...

I feel I am having lows and highs during the day...hope that's due to the nofap withdrawl....not very low lows but some degree of lowness...highs are good I feel very happy and proud....I m starting meditation to keep my body at peace at all situations...

Also I just watched a movie yesterday and i see the goals of movies today is just to have sex , drink and smoke....We are fucking up the youth of this generation....I feel there should be more content on inspiring people...the movies are making our life hopeless showing just the negative and dark side of us rather than the positive side....

 

Damn the urges are too high.....had to hit the panic button.....and got a nice reddit post that craving is addiction leaving the body...so i felt good that i'm having urges....