pron almost destroyed my life

hello everyone
I would like to welcome you to my darkest secret
my real name is N0ur Kassab I'm currently an M2 student in neuroscience neurobiology at the Grenoble Alpe university
I would like to tell my story the story I'm not ready to tell even my family
I was exposed to pornography(cartoon pornography since I was 4) and i was immediately hooked up
I would take any opportunity to leave my house to an internet shop (worst place to watch porn but I didn't have home internet yet) and spend at least an hour browsing for porn. I was especially attracted to BDSM and other hardcore pornography my favorite where comics hardcore pornography providing me with all the fantasies I wanted.
At the same time, i was having difficulties at school I was new there and we were only 5 guys. unlike them, i was taking my studies very seriously and I manage to do very well. Unfortunately, that only attracted jealousy even hatred to me. The girls didn't want to talk to me since I was a coward, shy nerd who didn't take lot's of initiative toward them I exaggerate a bit I actually had an opportunity to be with someone but I wasn't into it I liked another girl= complicated story). I guess porn provided me with the opportunity to escape from this stressful at first and that's how things started for me.
Now I arrived at that point where I can't even focus on my highly important studies. and two weeks or so ago I decided that it's enough I will not drink that poison again and it's time to man up and take back control on my life.
will continue the story every now and then as a way to shield me from my addiction.
thank you for reading this hope to read your story and listen (if you live in Grenoble)