Productive loneliness

Although I am lonely with very few friends that I don't see regularly , my loneliness is productive. I don't really see it as something too bad. I always do some productive and I improve myself daily. Spirituality, philosophy and other things I study daily and they give beauty to my life and help me cope with life.

I used to have no friends in the past and suffer from social anxiety. Now, my social anxiety has decreased a lot.

I am also on my 52 th day without pornography. I also quit smoking 3 months ago...

The thing is: I look forward to make more friends. The problem is that I find difficult to talk with most people because I don't find any common ground for any topic.

People seem so shallow to me. As I've never been to any party, I don't even know what they talk about at parties. This is my biggest concern. I don't know what I should talk to another person apart from trivial matters...

And I still don't understand what do people talk to each other. Everything seems so shallow.

On a more positive note, I feel more happy now that I quit pornography for good and never relapsed.