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PMO addiction destroyed my

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by ahmadladx, Sep 18, 2018.

  1. ahmadladx

    ahmadladx Fapstronaut

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    before my addiction started i was normal and mentally healthy with no problem at all, and the top student in class , and i was extremely social , i was awkward from time to time but in normal range , however when i was in my last years of school i have done a mistake that i regret now and been bullied because some kids spread a rumors about it ,(a lot of my friends left me and laugh at me and i was sad at that time (not depressed just sad) , as the time goes i forget about it but i was bored with no activities and nothing to do ( i live in really small town) , so after that i went to high school and start pmo after i have my first wet dream then it become addiction and i used it as escape from life and bordem , some day i noticed my hand shaking but i ignore it but is getting worse as the time goes , then i begin to ignore life and just masturbate , when i started college first thing i did is making new friends but i noticed my body in a panic attack when i talk to people and cant study and focus then i knew the problem is porn i tried to quit many times but i fail , but now i stoped for about a month and i swear all my problems begin to fade away , addiction is away that bran is using to escape life , cutt it from your life , and now i knew that porn is like a drug

    by the way why pmo cause shaking in muscles , when i stopped it decreases everyday , so iam sure the pmo is the problem alot of people say it doesn't cause it but they are wrong , maybe it happen for some poeple , can anyone tell me what is going in my body ?
     
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  2. bobbiebob

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    Yep, this one. When I used pmo as escapism from my life, I was really struggling with this, It got to the point where it was reallly hard to turn my head because I'm scared that I will accidentally looked at my friend's eyes. But thats my past tho, I've been quitting pmo quite long and I never have this problem anymore. Glad to find people like me.
     
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  3. ahmadladx

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    Iam glad that you quit this addiction ,
    I want to ask have you experience shakining , my hole body shakes after pmo
     
  4. goldendragon86

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    Drive to succeed... and I am better than my addiction. Hence I am not PMOing tonight.
     
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  5. Pmo is basically excitement addiction. You wouldn't believe the amount of excitatory neurochemicals that is released during pmo. Mainly adrenalin, and its precursor, dopamine. These excitatory neurotransmitters remain in your system long after you're done, which can cause the shaking. Pmo weakens the nervous system. The French refer to ejaculation as "la petite mort, or the little death." Pmo is a huge physical stressor. So-called stress release/reduction is temporary at best. In the long term it always has negative effects, many of which can develop into something more severe. These excitatory neurochemicals actually have the ability to kill off neurons. Listen to your own body and never let anyone tell you pmo is good for stress because obviously it isn't.
     
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  6. ahmadladx

    ahmadladx Fapstronaut

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    I gess that i really missed up my nerves , i will never pmo again regarding the withdrawal that is killing me
     
  7. ahmadladx

    ahmadladx Fapstronaut

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    Guys i have exams after few days and i cant study , the withdrawal are so strong and cant cocentrate , if i fail in the exams i will repeat this year , should i relapse ? OR WHAT SHOULD I DO , please help
     
  8. ConMan

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    Relapse. Quit after exams
     
  9. ahmadladx

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  10. ConMan

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    Think of it as a few more days of porn rather than a whole other year of school
     
  11. oaty

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    DO NOT relapse whatever you do. It will make things worse. You're on a good streak. Stay strong and strive to focus on your studies. Once you get into youre studying it should become easier. I wish you all the best and I hope I'm not too late
     
  12. ahmadladx

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    man i did watch porn aweek ago i dont no if it counts as relapse or just edging , i feelt good and all my anxiety gone but after 2 days all this shit come back hard , extreme anxiety and social anxiety , shakiness , racing thoughts , pain in all my body , I FEEL LIKE IAM IN HELL , cant even study for 5 minutes , thats makes me more scared
     
  13. ahmadladx

    ahmadladx Fapstronaut

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    today iam feeling weak , insecure , i get the feeling that am not a real man , idont know why i feel this way
     
  14. ahmadladx

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    I did relapse to porn and it really make it worse
     
  15. ahmadladx

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    Guys , in the last period in my streak i started to notice my veins started to pump at random times , it pump strongly , and i noticed that my hand arteries become more visible and larger , even in my balls they are becoming larger , it a sign that my body is healing IAM SURE , but it a bit scary , can anyone tell me what is going on please .
     
  16. oaty

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    You can't change what you already did so just concentrate on this new streak. If you ever feel like relapsing, read these posts again so it reminds you of how bad it was. Stay strong, this is a battle that we can't afford to lose.

    I don't know why your veins are pumping, it could be a withdrawal effect or maybe a sign that you're healing. I wouldn't worry too much about it at the moment but if it keeps happening and/or keeps getting stronger then maybe you should talk to a doctor. I'm sure you will be fine.
     
  17. Maxinig

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    Glad to hear that from people who want to be a new person every day!
     
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  18. ahmadladx

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    Ok , i will keep going on this till i overcome my addiction
     
  19. Westsidejimmy

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    I completely agree that PMO causes physical damage. I was an addict for at least 32 years. I'm just now barely coming out of it. It's taken me a full year of no PMO and aproaching 6 months of no MO after 100 or so days hard mode. They call it hard because it is. I went thru hell week in the Army and that was a joke compared to PAWS. Keep at it and you'll succeed, but I won't sugar coat it things are going to suck for a while.
     

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