PLEASE HELP...Addiction takes me over and I cant control it

What's up everyone...I'll try to make this as brief as possible, so I'll preface my comment by explaining how I've been on and off NoFap for over 2 to 3 years now (Longest streaks ranged from 45, 70, 85, and 109 days during this time). Recently, I had a streak lasting 68 days, but unfortunately relapsed..It was like I was in this odd, dreamlike element in which the addiction LITERALLY just took me over and did not allow me to think clearly. I regretted the act immensely, immediately felt anxious/depressed/anti-social/lethargic/etc., and vowed to not jerk off for at least another 70 days. However, for the past 3 days since my relapse, I've woken up trying to remind myself why PMO is detrimental to my psychological health and brain, but the same "Overpowering" feeling comes over me; its like I can list out the reasons why fapping is destroying me, but for some strange reason I just don't care while in the moment. Even though I ALWAYS regret the act afterwards and get angry with myself, I'm pretty worried that this addiction is more serious than anyone would think...Imagine telling someone that "I'm addicted to PMO"...Most people would laugh and view masturbation as a normal, daily, healthy activity. But, I know I have a problem, and am scared that the longer the streak, the harder it will be to stop relapsing once you do so. Anyway, I'd appreciate any insight from anyone else here dealing with similar issues.

**ALSO** Does anyone get a weird feeling in the back of their head after they jerk off? It feels like a numbness/burning/tingling sensation that happens every time I binge. NGL, I kind of feel strung out like an actual drug addict, which seems odd to me...

THANK YOU!