PLEASE DON'T JUDGE ME

Just because it's CURRENT YEAR!!! doesn't mean something is acceptable or widely accepted. That's just the illusion, you see.

The loudest voice does not represent the majority.

I also fail to see how homosexuality is a blessing, given it's just a sexuality without biological justification.

Neither of you are arguing that well.

IGY, while it's noticable that you tried to clear up your position, there's no need to become defensive and emotional which lead you to throw out an ad-hominem in response to theirs right here:

Come on, man, relax. They're just one person you'll never meet and have the option of ignoring if you can't hold yourself up to them.

Your claim, Velvet, is clearly anecdotal ( which is the majority of the evidence behind NoFap, true ) and the ad-hominem dismissives are lazy:

"and apparently you can't COMPREHEND what I shared as my experience neither.....Maybe next time you should in your own words seek "clarity" before telling someone what their true sexual preference maybe with forgone illogical replies.....I don't see how you can come up with the hogwash you replied with... maybe you need clarity in understanding that as well"

Just to make it clear, I'm not attacking anybody nor do I claim to be some "expert on argument" or anything. I'm just pointing out what I see here.

 

Thank you for your feedback. Yeah, hormones made me be a mess. Also curiosity is not helping. I want to end these things abstaining from PMO!

 

Thanks! Yeah, I have to be very carefull about who I am going to tell this. Today I wanted to tell my whole story to a priest, but i couldn't; honestly I was afraid.
Congratulations for all those 550+ days!!

 

Thanks a lot @LiquidShoes
Also I wanted to aplologize @Velvet_Rope97 and @IGY for causing all this mess. I didn't wanted to provoke all this mess. We are all here to listen some other's words and to express your thoughts with all the possible respect.
Thank you very much for trying to help me anyway. God bless u!
What I have concluded for now, is that I should definetely talk to a priest or a professional about it and I NEED to end with this addiction that only makes me be a worst person day by day.

 

I hope it happens the same to me! I have always dreamed about marrying and having a family! Also I am grateful to hear that it is possible to come again to the straight side!
God bless u!

 

C'mon @IGY ...

 

I haven't read everyone's replies but I just wanted to say woww well done for getting all that out in the open. I have done things I'm not proud of but I wouldn't be able to put them like that, even anonymously in a forum. Your feelings of regret show that you are a good person. It is so easy to loose your way in this day& age, I reckon a lot of the things you describe aren't as rare as you might think. So try to give yourself a break, forgive yourself and move on to be the best version of yourself that you can be (straight, gay or otherwise) best of luck to you x

 

OK, no offense. Well only a moderator can do it. So start a conversation with a member of staff when they are online.

 

Yeah, porn makes us behave as animals.

 

Thanks, I really feel better to express all these things in here. I used to kept them deep inside my heart, but that is just really harmful.
I really feel regret about all those things. I want to become a good person.
But it is very hard to forgive myself of what I have done.
Thanks for your feedback!

 

Saying them online is better than not saying them at all. Keep talking about it and maybe you will get the courage to share these feelings in real life. I also do not think you are a monster. I heard a really nice thing in church one time that has stuck with me. God hates sin, but he loves us sinners. Learn to love yourself and to remember that these are problems - they are not who you are! You are more than your sexual problem. Keep your chin up and learn to be strong.