I'm really bad at viewing new friends as just friends. I'm quietly analysing every new person I meet as a potential partner and it's really not healthy. I need to be able to meet people (no matter how attractive or compatible they may be) and build meaningful friendships with them. I think part of it may be down to BPD (borderline personality disorder) because we have a fear of rejection and abandonment. So I think I'm constantly trying to take relationships to the next level because it feels less likely that they will disappear from my life. Which doesn't really make sense because it would hurt even more losing a partner as opposed to a friend.