pied problem

Hi everyone. I have an ed problem. It doesn't happen during the sex (I am not getting laid), it happens during masturbation. I can get an orgasm and a half boner sometimes. I went to the doctor, he told me there is nothing wrong with me and it is probably psychological. I am also having really bad days and I am using anti-depressant, mood stabilizer and an anti-psychotic. but even before using anti-depressant, I had this problem. so I think porn might be the problem. I started nofap only because of my ed problem. I will return to masturbation if I can cure my pied. because I don't think I can get a girlfriend. I am not a social person. so porn is my only choice. I also sometimes think about suicide but even guns don't kill 100%. but at the same time I want to live actually, just I am sick of suffering. I have been to psychiatric hospital before, since then I have ed problem. I am pretty sure it is not the medications because they are already out of my system. Do people here who suffer from pied usually have pied during sex or masturbation? I know it depends to the person, but I can't go on for months to heal. I am just hoping to heal in two weeks or a month. masturbation is also a coping mechanism for me with depression.

 

thank you man. just the uncertainty of how many days I should NoFap is a bit challenging. I read people heal in two weeks and also I read about people who didn't heal in years. I'm at my first day today, but I watched porn out of curiousity, I didn't touch myself though.

 

Yes, I know they kill sex drive. but I just started antidepressants, this problem was existing last week too. I am seeing a psychiatrist and a psychologist but I feel like it is not helping. I feel lonely(have 3 real friends) and I have changed after the hospitalization. I don't think I will suicide now, but I am not going to my classes, my resistance to life got lower. I don't feel like a man anymore because of my ed. I am also envying people's social lives. I am 5 ft 8 and I am also sick of people ridiculing short men. I spoke these issues with my psychologist and my psychiatrist but there is no magic pill. they can't help me even though they want.

 

by the way another reason that I sometimes think about suicide is I don't want to go to psychiatric hospital again. There is abusive staff in psychiatric hospitals (not all of them but still there is). not having your freedom is awful. my confidence is not like used to be. I went to psychiatric hospital in a foreign first world country. worst days of my life. Also in my country(second world country), there is more stigma around mental health. so I am guessing it would be worse.

 

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many people are not so willingly to help people. What I am seeing is a culture of making others down to look funny or social confirmation. I am not saying all people are like that. I believe you care or my psychologist care. but even his therapy can't help me. I am still short. I have still ed. I still feel lonely. my dreams are ended because of my psychotic incident. and I am dead scared that one day I will have an another one and end in prison or psychiatric hospital. thank you for listening and trying to be helpful.

 

yeah, I know. In a medical sense, I am getting every help that I should. what I need is socializing which I can't do it.

 

if I go back to pied problem. I am having issues during masturbation. and I read that even people who have pied during sex can't heal after months. so does that mean that I should nofap for much longer time? they say for some people it is years which is impossible. my question is; can people who have pied masturbate and the problem is only during sex?

 

thanks man!

 

thanks man. I appreciate it

 

It is been 3 days. but everyday I watched porn and jerked off except 1 day. I didn't orgasm though. but I guess my goal should be not watching porn rather than not having orgasm. it is even harder. although anti-depressant killed my sexual urges, I still want to watch it. it is an obsession. I almost feel like I am obligated to do it. Gosh, it was so good of being healthy. on the side note, I am not sure if I am having pied, because it happened right after psychiatric hospitalization. I didn't watch porn in the hospital for more than a month.

 

thanks to both of you