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[PIED] No PMO since 17 days, my story

Discussion in 'Porn-Induced Sexual Dysfunctions' started by FrenchWinner, Jan 18, 2018.

  1. FrenchWinner

    FrenchWinner Fapstronaut

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    Hello Fapstronauts !
    I am new on this forum and i have issues concerning my Reboot.

    First Let's talk about my history: Im 19 and i started fapping since the of of 10 at least 2 times a day (average i was doing it 3-4 times a day). And i discovered what is porn at this age even if i wasnt using it i was more curious about it.
    I really started watching porn at the age of 12 and it was soft. From the age of 15 i was interested in new genres such as Interracial cuckold gangbang facials compilation ... However i like equally masturbating to my own fantasizes even romantic.

    I didn't experience ANYTHING with girls until i was at the university 3 months ago. I realised that i had success with girls and cuddled 2 times with a girl i met at a party in my campus but did not have sex with her. Howerver i had SEMIBONERS just by kissing her.

    Then in October 2017 i dated a new girl and i was surprised myself how i SEEMED confident and charmed her even if i was shitting my pants and naturally shy (i used to play theather so i was capable of playing a role to impress her) ^^. She said that i had surely a fenomenal success with girls lol if she knew that she would be my first.
    We finally went to her flat and cuddled but didnt make love because she was tired and i was very anxious but very proud of me.
    The second time we met she wanted to have sex but i was uncapable of doing it. My Dick didnt respond. I was ashamed and she was very disapointed i gave her oral.
    We stopped talking together by phone but i met her another time at a party and she said how crap i was and i was not a good plan (sorry for my english by the way). She was drunk but the worse arrives. She was with another guy and asked her girldfriend who's be the best to fuck her. I realised that i never saw a BI*** like her.
    But i wanted to take revenge and i went to her flat one more time... As expected i failed. I didnt know why i couldnt get hard and said sorry i laid on her bed. For 2 minutes we didnt say a single world and then she said me to get my clothes on and she took me out of her home. I was very shocked.

    The day after this tragedy i tried to have an eerction by myself but couldnt even with porn. During several weeks i jerked off with sadness having difficulties to get hard ! I thought i was chocked but i started to see (maybe) the cause of my problems on the internet on YBOP and NOFAP. i also started to be less sad and try to recover from my failed sex tentative.


    Its been 15 days since i started my Journey : - No Porn, No P-subs like sexy photos ...
    -No masturbation, no orgasm.
    - Try to avoid fantasizes even if it is difficult ( i have mostly soft fantasizes more than porn flashs). Fantasizes occur easier when i wake up and not totally conscious. Fortunately i only had soft or romantic fantasizes. When i did fantasize i had sometimes semi to 70% boners. Does it slow down my reboot ?
    - Also try no to oggle the women and stare at them even their face.

    I had absolutely no effects until Day 15, i was fine, had easy urges to counter whiwh is surprising because when i abstained in the past for others reasons i suffered huge cravings. Then yesterday day 16 i had a very strange sensation : i felt that my head was burning, or heat sensation. Then i had my sensation my brain tingles and i had a lot of energy. I started to panic a little a ran to exercise in my campus then i took a colt shower. I was first afraid it was a shot of dopamine i gave to myself maybe fantasizing (i don't remember if it was the case but when i do i try to stop and i don't feel any urge, arousal or dopamine hit then ).
    Today, i still have a sensation of burning especially in my scalp. I searched such symptoms on the internet and it is not common in rebooters, but in found that it could be due to anxiety. Has anyone experienced that ?

    Thanks for reading
     
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  2. FrenchWinner

    FrenchWinner Fapstronaut

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    I have also forgotten to mention that i have got my morning woods back but only when i wake up by myself without sound. Do you think it is a sign of recovery ? Some tell it is just a sign that you are physically fine and i lost my morning woods after my first sex try because they disappeared instantantly hen waking up because of a kind of "performance anxiety".
     

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