Peeping Tom Peeping Porn

Two weeks ago someone asked if watching P without MO is okay for Nofap. After all, as long as I don't ejaculate (O), I am not relapsing, right? The short answer is NO, the long answer is NOOOOOOOOooooooooo.

Technically speaking, yes, you are still on your streak, but how long would it take before you relapse? 2 days? 5 days? P is a gateway to M, which is a gateway to O. You are still bombarding your brain with sexual images and would often recall it later in time. I have tested this myself.

About a week ago, I reached 30 days but got into the flatline with zero motivation and energy to go out. Moreover, I had a funeral to attend that night and there was no point for me going out in the morning and come back later. So guess what I did? I peeped. I watched P for at least 30 minutes even though my conscious self shouted 'WARNING! TURN IT OFF TURN IT OFF, YOU ARE GOING TO RELAPSE. Oh... that's nice. NOOOO. RED ALERT. CLOSE THE FUCKING TAB'. I can tell you I closed the window for like few minutes and then my right hand right clicked the browser and opened 'incognito mode', this has happened three times during that half an hour. I can tell you my brain was urging me to keep watching, even though I felt nothing below my pants (I have PIED and the flatline might have killed my libido, so no erection). My brain wanted more. I was so glad my mom shouted 'get ready', which destroyed the cycle of death before I could draw my flaccid meat out. But the story didn't end there.

The images and video scenes stuck inside my brain and it often show the material to you when you least expected. It's like showing your graduating pictures on your iPad to your mom, but this time it is your brain showing you instead of your mom. Without being specific, my brain rewinded one whole 4 minute P scene when I was paying my condolences to my uncle. It was very disrespectful. This has happened over and over again for at least 4 days before they start to fade. They act as brain fogs and obstacles inside your brain, deterring you from thinking straight. It feels that I am tightrope walking even until now, urges would pop here and there, all because I wasted 30 minutes on P.

My conclusion is, if you really want to stick with Nofap and pick up the real Nofap lifestyle, PMO must be out of the way. So no peeping.