Hi everyone, I feel really bad about what happened, this is pretty sick, so please be thoughtful. So a while ago, I started to get addicted to shemale porn. I really started to fantasize about being with one. In the last few weeks I got very horny, about women especially, but sometimes thought about being with a shemale. One night I broke down and met with a very feminine looking shemale and had sex with her. But in the end it felt pretty disgusting. A few days later, I felt horny again, and sadly, I met another shemale. This one looked like a man, and I was pretty disgusted by him, but he convinced me to get physical with him. Luckily we didn't have sex but we ended up doing some other stuff. After that I hated myself so bad, I wanted to kill myself and vomit. The next day I woke up with huge chest pain, headaches, and had difficulties breathing. Every time I think about it I'm having panic attacks. And I'm really scared that I will become gay. I don't want to be attracted to guys, I want females. I cried a couple of days after this event, I don't know why I made this mistake. I looked at girls porn to make sure that I'm still attracted to girls, I really don't want to be gay. This really fucked me up, I hope I can get out from this. What do you think I should do from here? Thanks in advance.