Had a relapse last night. I had such bad temptation and ended up breaking in. I don't know why it is so complicated just to get through one week. Two years ago, going withought P for a week was easy. Everytime I relapse, I just want to lock my self up in my room and sit in my shame. I feel no desire to talk to my girlfriend or friends, or even my parent's. Every day I constantly fear about ending up in a life that i had no intention to be in. I fear I am not going to be able to graduate if I dont get my grades up. My head is always in a depressed place, my girlfriend's sexual past ends up bothering me, I take everything for granted and do not appreciate life as much as I do when I resist p. I remember when I would get to the 7th day, everything would just be amazing. I'd feel unstoppable and I could flirt and have conversation's for hours. I felt my voice get deeper and deeper and just felt more whole, as a human being. I feel that there is so much more in life to enjoy. I would love and cherish my girlfriend like no other, I would love and enjoy going to work and busting my ass for that money. I just want all of that happiness back, for good. So if you can, please help me. Give me some pointers, some tips and tools on how to get through one week again and finally defeat this beast that has been taking over my life. the longest i'v gone without P in my life is two weeks. I appreciate you reading this, stay strong all of you non fappers!