P’s story

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  1. P325687

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    I’ve been hiding this side to me for years but I can’t take having this fetish anymore. It’s now taking over my life and I feel ashamed and disgusted for having it. It all started when I was young, I didn’t know what I was experiencing. This takes a lot for me to admit but I have a fart fetish. When I was younger, I noticed I liked hearing the sounds of farts and it made me feel a type of way. I didn’t know what was going on but I knew it was a feeling I never felt before and it felt good. As I grew older, I discovered videos on YouTube of women or men farting, it didn’t matter what gender they were as long as they were farting that’s all that mattered to me. The things I would search is ‘women farting’ ‘men farting’ ‘bubbly farts’ ‘bloated farts’ ‘wet farts’ The more gross the farts, the more I like it, the louder the better. Every time I finished watching it I feel so disgusted. Sometimes after watching it, I would look at porn after, or the other way around watch porn then watch the fart vidoes. It would get to a point where sometimes anyone around me who farts, I get aroused by and I don’t want it to be like that anymore. I’m still suffering with this fetish up until now. I’m 19 years old and I want to overcome this once and for all
     
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  2. GaryMayor

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    Hi, fetishes have all shapes and sizes. Nevertheless it is something to worry about if you feel that it decreases your life quality. Consider meeting the psychologist to start your journey.
     
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  3. P325687

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    Hello @GaryMayor thank you for the idea and for reading my blog I’ll do some research and see how to see a psychologist about this
     
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  4. P325687

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    I’m feeling urges to watch videos right now. I’m going to try and stay strong and not watch anything tonight

    I can do this. Lets go!
     
  5. sayonaraPMO

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    Hey there. Well done for sharing, that's a great first step!

    I hope NoFap can give you some relief from the distress you're experiencing. It does have it's limitations though and it doesn't cure everything, especially if your fetish isn't necessarily linked to porn, masturbation or orgasm.

    I don't know where you're from, but there will be services you can go to. Have a look for Wellbeing Practitioners or Behavioural Psychologists, and they'd be able to refer you to a sexual specialist. You can have something like Conditional Behavioural Therapy (CBT) which can help you start to separate certain conditions (like farts) with certain behaviours (arousal).

    Good luck!
     
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  6. P325687

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    Hello @sayonaraPMO thank you for reading my blog, my fetish would be linked to porn as I watch porn after I watch the videos once I’m aroused and sometimes masturbate as well. I thought joining nofap was a good place to start, if it doesn’t help I’ll try other ways, thank you for the recommendations
     
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  7. S9198

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    Welcome to NoFap. I hope you’ve received a warm welcome on this amazing community where people come to better their lives. No fetish is too weird for here. We all have kinks and sexual tastes that we don’t want to be there and that’s what we’re on here for.

    Good luck. I will be following your blog
     
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  8. Coffee Candy

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    Hi. I can relate to you on this almost completely and I know it’s rough. I commend you for coming on here & outing your fetish, takes some courage!
    Good luck here and with finding help in general, I hope it works out for you and becomes lighter. I’ll be here if you wanna message or anything : )
     
  9. P325687

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    Hello @S9198 thank you for reading my blog and understanding
     
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    Hello thank you for reading my blog and for the positivity. I’d be sure to message if I need to
     
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    This morning I was feeling slight urges, I was fantasing about the videos I watch and people I know who’ve farted (which has aroused me in the past) for example my partner. Before he knew I was suffering with this, he would fart around me (like any normal couple would) but little did he know it aroused me. I was close to searching things up then I stayed strong
     
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  12. S9198

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    Now how are you feeling? And how did you deal with the urge this morning?
     
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  13. Maltheal

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    You can power through and you’ve made a pretty good progress till now coming here and admitting it
    Stay strong and have faith :)
     
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    I’m not feeling the urge anymore, I’m with the family right now chilling so I’m not thinking about it. To deal with it I got up out of bed and watched a series I normally watch and was playing with my lil bro. That took my mind of it
     
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  15. P325687

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    Thank you, I can power through and do this thank you for the support
     
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  16. S9198

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    That’s good you did other things instead of giving into the urge. It’s about the choice you make which determines your success or your failure. Keep fighting
     
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    Thinking about watching videos, I wouldn’t say it’s an urge to but the thought is crossing my mind. Why do I have to constantly have this on my mind, having thoughts like shall I watch it you’ll enjoy it at the time and then think if you watch you’ll feel like shit and be ashamed of yourself after. Why do I always have to have this battle in my head, I’ve been going through this for too long and I just want these thoughts and these feelings to go away, I want this fetish to go away
     
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  18. S9198

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    The fetish will go away, but in time. You have to put the effort in to do so. Look on my blog, and look at the latest reply @tyrant108 made. It is valuable to succeeding in this battle. You’re doing well, keep going.

    Today’s been a very reflective day for me. Been thinking about a lot and thinking about how am I going to beat this. I’ve wrote a life vision for myself and I decided I need to eat, breath and sleep that vision of myself. That vision is the key for me succeeding in this.

    Perhaps make a life vision for yourself?

    Just a thought
     
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    Your reply made me think about a lot right now, I’ve just wrote a life vision for myself and I feel better after doing that. Thank you for the idea of writing one, the encouragement and positivity, I can beat this, the thoughts will go away, I just need to change my mindset and think positively about this and stop dwelling on the thoughts I’m having
     
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  20. Coffee Candy

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    I think it's pretty neat to have found each other on here . We should talk sometime.
     
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