On the road to full recovery (1 year now)

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  1. D.T.1989

    D.T.1989 Fapstronaut

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    Long time lurker and former PMO addict, here to share my experience.

    Since I was 17, in 2007, I was very heavily addicted to porn and masturbation. It all originated from loneliness, given how I was alone, didn't have friends, kept getting rejected by girls, and felt lost, in addition to having a very broken family and an absent deadbeat father. As a result, I started being drawn more into PMO, and truly became hooked. At first, I did not think anything of it, given how it distracted me from all the issues I was dealing with. As the years went on though, I noticed that I was becoming very unmotivated, a lot more emotional than ever, and I began to have twisted fantasies and thoughts as it related to porn. Not to mention, when I finally started to have relationships with girls, I also developed PIED due to me continuing to watch porn and masturbate, sometimes up to 7 times a day. I realized at that point that I was being impacted heavily by PMO, especially when I would wake up in the middle of the night and feel the need to rub one off to a porn video or an online cam girl.

    The road to recovery was very tough for me. I made countless attempts to quit my addiction. The streaks originally lasted anywhere from 2 days to 14 (if I had enough will power to get through that long). And I continued trying, despite the multiple failures. The breakthrough came on June 2 of 2018. That was officially the last day ever when I masturbated to porn, and after that, I had a 34 day NoFap streak, which ended when I couldn't cum with the girl I was having fun with at the time, and ended up having to manually rub one off and bust a nut in her mouth. That night I felt like crap, but it did not stop me from wanting to be fully free from porn and masturbation, and since that day, I have not orgasmed from masturbation. All of the orgasms I had since that day were through intercourse.

    The improvements I have noticed since then is that my energy levels skyrocketed, I made gym workout progress through added muscle, and in my current 266 day and going streak, I have actually had sex with 3 different girls, and by me not masturbating, it gave me an extra boost and made the actual sex a lot more enjoyable and arousing. The porn cravings have all disappeared too. Now I only crave the real sex.

    I am happy to answer any questions you guys have.
     
  2. 220woof671

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    Congratulations --- 266 Days with no Porn :)
     
  3. lipfaster

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    I really want to congratulate with you! That is a heck (in the good sense) of a journey.

    I would like to ask you: after the initial relapse, did you notice wheter or not it took more time to get happy and motivated again? How long did it take to be at your maximum energy, motivation and mental clearness? And how long did it last until you have noticed any decrease?

    Many questions but I feel like you're the right person to ask :)

    Thank you
     
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  5. D.T.1989

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    For me it took a week to be motivated again. And as far as maximum energy, for me it would be a month into my current streak where I peaked. I had a month of flatline in the fall season too, which was hard, but I got through it. After the flatline ended, my mind became more clear and I really started to see things in perspective, which I would say would be around the 150 day mark. It might be different for you, but for me, this is how it all transpired.

    And thanks everyone !
     
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  6. Trigirl78

    Trigirl78 Fapstronaut

    Very inspiring as a SO to a PA who is 53 days in. I hope he can find the same success you have! He is currently abstaining from P & M but he does hope to be able to M at some point, but he’s decided to hold off whilst in recovery and learning and discovering his reaction to moods and environments etc. I like you want him to want to have sex with me over any M ever! I don’t want to go back to being second and third choice.

    Seriously though well done you are amazing x
     
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  7. GeeJ

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    Well done.
     
  8. D.T.1989

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    Update to my progress.

    I have now officially reached 300 days on my current NoFap streak yesterday. Today is day 301.

    Some notes about my progress:
    -A lot of gym progress in terms of muscle building.
    -In a happy committed relationship now with a woman I am deeply in love with.
    -The fog and confusion have all disappeared for good.

    There have been negatives that have appeared though:
    -Lately I have been having quite a lot of vivid nightmares.
    -I have been feeling very angry lately too, and one of the causes of the anger is the dysfunction of my family. They seem to want to drag me down to their level, and it seems like I am constantly at war with them.
    -Society at large makes my blood boil too.
    -I have had moments of severe stress and depression too, that made me feel that I would be better off dead than alive. The past flashbacks and their vividness have been taking a toll on me.
     
  9. Maryan Jama

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    Hi baby I'm glad that your continuing your battle. I know it's not easy and you got my full support honey. Keep it up. Love you ❤
     
  10. xvtc ctvx

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    Nice job hanging in there and not giving up when handling life's natural stressors.

    How long did it take to recover from PIED after your day 34 relapse?
     
  11. D.T.1989

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    After the day 34 relapse, it took roughly a week. The day I relapsed that time, I only stroked off once, and kept myself in check and prevented any further damage, despite the cravings to return to the old days.
     
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  13. F328

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    The negative side affects are actually good in my opinion you are getting to the core of yourself you are angry good figure out why and understand you must take responsibility for your emotions , stressed good that's a sign you need to learn new skills to manage stress besides porn and masturbation , depressed good that's an opportunity to step back detach from problems and find the good in yourself and the world .
     
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  14. Maryan Jama

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    I am feeling so sad when you says that.i hope be able to support you personally. Love you
     
  15. F328

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    Why sad ?
     
  16. Cesar.augusto

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    [QUOTE = "DT1989, post: 1977076, miembro: 313254"] Por mucho tiempo, acechador y ex adicto a la PMO, aquí para compartir mi experiencia.

    Desde que tenía 17 años, en 2007, era muy adicto al porno y la masturbación. Todo se originó en la soledad, dado que estaba solo, no tenía amigos, las chicas me rechazaban y me sentía perdido, además de tener una familia muy quebrantada y un padre sin vida. Como resultado, comencé a involucrarme más en PMO y realmente me enganché. Al principio, no pensé nada al respecto, dado que me distrajo de todos los problemas con los que estaba lidiando. Sin embargo, a medida que pasaron los años, noté que me estaba desmotivando, mucho más emocional que nunca, y comencé a tener fantasías y pensamientos retorcidos en relación con la pornografía. Sin mencionar que, cuando finalmente comencé a tener relaciones con chicas, también desarrollé PIED debido a que continuaba viendo pornografía y masturbándome, a veces hasta 7 veces al día.

    The road to recovery was very tough for me. I made countless attempts to quit my addiction. The streaks originally lasted anywhere from 2 days to 14 (if I had enough will power to get through that long). And I continued trying, despite the multiple failures. The breakthrough came on June 2 of 2018. That was officially the last day ever when I masturbated to porn, and after that, I had a 34 day NoFap streak, which ended when I couldn't cum with the girl I was having fun with at the time, and ended up having to manually rub one off and bust a nut in her mouth. That night I felt like crap, but it did not stop me from wanting to be fully free from porn and masturbation, and since that day, I have not orgasmed from masturbation. All of the orgasms I had since that day were through intercourse.

    Las mejoras que he notado desde entonces es que mis niveles de energía se dispararon, hice que el entrenamiento del gimnasio progresara a través del músculo agregado, y en mi actual racha de 266 días, he tenido relaciones sexuales con 3 chicas diferentes, y como no me masturbo, me dio un impulso adicional e hizo que el sexo real fuera mucho más agradable y excitante. Los antojos de porno también han desaparecido. Ahora solo me apetece el sexo real.

    Me complace responder a cualquier pregunta que tengan. [/ QUOTE]
    Me gustaria algunos consejos para superar este problema amigo , porque me esta afectando muchisimo
     
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  17. D.T.1989

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    As far as advice that I can give, most importantly, really put your mind to it and remain focussed. Don't let anything derail the goal you want to accomplish, and believe me, there will be things that will definitely try to derail the NoFap goal. Everything from temptation, depression, anxiety, even a lack of self esteem too. I have been through all of it. The PMO demons will not give up without a fight, and they will fight you to the death. But you have to not let them win and keep on fighting.
     
  18. magic ib

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    i would like to ask about libido rather than performance and relationship after that long period did it return completely?
    i am 26 yrs and have been struggling relapsing motivated depressed cycle after cycle (something inside you keep telling you it won't return, my libido was extreme in the past just looking at some random girls in the street was enough to get aroused and erected.. that libido kept me on porn since young.. noticed too late that my libido had gone .. i got my testosterone levels checked and it was at the bottom 2 ng .. took colmphine citrate at very low conc. half tab everyday by doctor then checked my level and it was above 15.. my doctor said you took testosterone injections (how funny).. i realized the problem in my brain not testicles..
    he advised me to get in relationship and see what happens ...
    then you are in a situation where you absolutely don't feel aroused 95% of the time, your doctor doesn't know what's going on and tells you to just go ahead... i know i have improved alot but that desire for sex just not there... i relapsed many times longest one was 3 months...
    i appreciate your answer...
     
    Last edited: May 22, 2019
  19. Muhammad99

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    Just one question?
    How did you got over feelings of intense cravings?
     
  20. looking

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    Just want to say I really appreciate this OP. It's very honest and it makes me believe that I can change too, despite being deep in PMO addiction.
     
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