ok ok..I am done with women

Good thing I didn't ejaculate. I am going for monk mode. Let's turn back the clock shall we. Going back to when I was a kid and rejected girls left and right.

There is an alpha in me but porn and masturbation have made me into a beta all these years. There is a hidden agenda with porn.

I have some asexual feelings right now, close to day 60 of no masturbation or porn for that matter.

I feel some anger brewing inside me, some resentment or idea of people being meaningless in a sense. I have lowered myself to crap standards for far too long. I think I have some attitude issues as well.

Kind of the same asocial tendacies after I masturbated but now without the masturbation with benefits.

 

Brahmacharya, aka monk-mode aka total celibacy.

This is the way. Once you train your mind to get over the illusions of skin-deep beauty, there is real freedom.

 

Use that power for the greater good !

The energy is real .

 

Well there is such a thing as not being the a good place for a relationship. At the same time though there is never a perfect time either. So keep your options open amigo.