oh cock! 90 days without porn

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  1. Marshmelloyellow

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    Day 0 : learning new stuff

    So, i read the guidebook provided at the site pretty simply explained about porn addiction. Before I started the rebooting process I thought of checking out if I am a victim of PIED, turns out that I'm not had an erection without using porn and idk but I'm gald!

    Book also mentioned about social site on which people post content that might influence the sexual trigger and tbh i realized instagram is one such site where there are alot of models posting very sexy photo etc etc so to refrain from that I deleted the app from my phone, please let me know if that is good.

    There's much to learn from that book i feel like reading it again and again, no urges today but I feel real challenge comes on the weekend when I'm bored and alone. Hope to do my best! Cheers!
     
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    Day 1 : Boner alert!

    Well...I have to explain to you guys something about 24*7 shift, in this sort of work I have to be in various different kind of shift hours because the whole team needs to work 24*7. So recently my shift timings changed from night shift to day and boy! it always affect sleep hours!

    So I wasn't able to sleep at night and started to think about watching porn masturbating and then hopeful I will get some sleep but because of the reading I didn't I was able to divert my mind and read throughout the night and thankfully it didn't come to my mind later.
    So I went to work in the day and got a quick nap in the office, when I woke up I had an erection asking to be jerked off but I was in a place where I couldn't do it so I just sort of hid it. It was very awkward for me to hide my boner had to tuck out my shirt, hide my legs under the table etc etc...finally it went away without cause any problem. Phew!

    The urges are real friends have to be very very strong mentally to defeat this devil.

    Peace out ! happy PMO!
     
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  3. Jack York

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    ? Hahaha. If you press edit. Then you can type how today went for you :)
     
  4. Marshmelloyellow

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    I did it...was just checking first :p
     
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  5. Jack York

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    Good thing no one caught you in the office! Shift work is awful for sleeping. But just do your best. :)

    This first week will be hard. But if you can handle it. You can do the rest of it. :)
     
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  6. Marshmelloyellow

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    Thanks for your support mate :)
     
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    Day 2 : Nothing new

    Nothing to report today just an ordinary day but ordinary is good because it keeps my mind off porn etc etc...
    Hope for more days like this.

    PS - I listened to Toxicity - (System of a down) all day, someone else like metal or rock?
     
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    Day 3 : Coping with urges.

    So last night I couldn't fall asleep easily and usually before I knew about this, I would have definitely watched porn and masturbated because it was what my brain always thought of "only if I could jerk off my mind would ease and I would fall asleep naturally".
    Yesterday night was tempting the same scenario but I started browsing on social media and the mind kept thinking of porn but somehow I went back to the book and read further ahead and learnt that I should resist going online about an hour or half before going to bed because one thing may lead to other and you may end up with falling into the pothole.

    I also read that The NoFap community is a great resource for tips on safe browsing. I would really like to try this if someone can help me set it up.

    To end I went back to the video which encouraged me to look up nofap and then sleep.

    I'm sharing the link for video below, Check it out for yourself guys.
     
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    Day 4 : note to self - keep going.

    Woah 4 days it has been without any PMO. I feel if I keep doing this something will change eventually. I feel documenting everything day after day is good to look back like a time capsule. I see myself on the 90th day reading all this my struggles and then cherishing the moments.
     
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    Day 5 : Peaceful day.

    Went to work, came back early.
    Meet some friends, catched up on various topics.
    Ate yummy pasta, got back home.

    Blessed day it was!
     
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    Day 6 : social media is awful.

    Almost forgot to put in the update for today. Spent the most of the afternoon alone watching youtube videos where i started watching music video but then i saw a video of chiropractic treatment. Even though there was nothing obscene in it, the doctor's treatment on a girl made me aroused. As I write this I come to realize how degraded my mind has become. So, as I read in the book to open social sites when in presence of others I went downstairs to my parents room and resisted watching youtube. Finally came back to my room and straight away started doing my work. I feel this here is the only safest site for browsing.

    Free time does the work of the devil
     
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    Day 7 : A week completed.

    A week completed without PMO! Small milestone achieved today! But I feel like this is just the start, journey is long very long...
     
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    Day 8 : wowowowo

    8 days bitches!!! Going strong!!!
     
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    Day 9 : future is bleak.

    Most strangest thing happened today, I started having a conversation with one of my colleagues in the cab home very much flirting sort of thing happening there. I was amazed by my behavior. Confidence growing maybe?

    Tomorrow's my off...probably the real test of character, going to spend alot of time idle or bored hopefully my mind switches on and I start to read and stuff
     
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  15. Jack York

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    good luck tomorrow! keep as busy as possible :D
     
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    Day 10 : update!

    So finally I reached into double digit of rebooting process and yesterday I was worried about if I would relapse because it was my off today but I was cruised through the day like wind, no thought at all about PMO did my guitar practice for the audition tomorrow, hopefully it goes well *wish me luck!*

    happy rebooting!
     
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    Day 11: moment of embarrassment.

    So today was my audition for the office band, i play the guitar and practiced good enough for it. Though it is very different to practice alone and play infront of someone. And I messed it up pretty badly. Oh god I don't know what happened to me, my hands started shaking i couldn't feel comfortable at all even though i was friends with most of the band members but idk i was just shit. But I can't stop thinking about it now. I have to do better maybe even join some classes i wanna play infront of audience face my fears.

    I will keep this as my goal through this rebooting process...
     
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    Day 12 : new goals discovered

    So, I decided today as the last day of my cigarette smoking days and send out a message to everyone in my contacts about the same saying that I have quit and encouraged others to do the same. Received mostly positive responses apart from a few negative ones which doubted my resolve. So I said to them that their hate makes me stronger to prove myself. I will accomplish both smoking and rebooting at the same time, more courage is needed and support from you guys.
     
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    Day 13 : hard work.

    God what a day...worked so hard in the office and without anyone's support I'm proud of myself, hopefully the boss recognizes the same!

    Finished the day on a high without smoking! hell yeah!
     
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    Day 14 : two week checkpoint.

    Going good so far, have to catch up on reading
     
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