OCD makes porn addiction 10 times worse

I have OCD as well. Dealing with the symptoms and not the root cause (the obsession) will lead us down a further path of destructive compulsions and obsession. For you, it seems pmo is proving to be a compulsion to help alleviate the intrusive thoughts.

The first step with OCD is to accept and understand that all these intrusive thoughts are not you. They are a product of a subconscious that is not working properly. We have to learn to let go of these thoughts as they come in, in and out, like water flowing. Meditation techniques and what not are best. I have a few links I could drudge up that might help. Cognitive behavioral therapy can be done by yourself, on yourself, and can be highly effective. Have you tried this ?

 

This guy has some good videos about OCD

 

I find OCD an interesting subject especially amongst porn users, obviosuly it's no laughing matter but i do feel it contributes a lot to the addictive patterns of behaviour. I've personally never been diagnosed with OCD however I think i have elements of it and growing up i definitely had odd behaviours, one of them was having to shake my head every time i entered a room and another was having to rub my bottom lip against objects i picked up, i no longer do those things but I still have an old behaviour that has been with me since i was very little and that is a kind of sensory OCD where I rub a clothes label between my fingers for hours on end. I calms me down and i find it extremely relaxing. I also have a strange complex with the number 13, like when it's 13 minutes past, i look at the time and think 'why is it that when i look at the time it's always 13 minutes past' or ill look at the time and i think 'oh look it's 13 minutes past again' It freaks me out a little bit but i know rationally that we look at the time numerous times in the day and obviously 13 is a common number so naturally people will see it often. just not everyone gives it a second thought like i do. Luckily it doesn't interfere with my day it's more like some kind of quirk. I would suggest maybe seeking outside support for OCD if you think it is causing you a lot of distress, maybe talk to your doctor about it and they can get you help to try and overcome it.

 

Don't deal with the symptoms, understand what you are really obsessing over (the number thing is a compulsion to give you a sense of relief from the general anxiety that underlies your actual obsession). Personally, I tend to rub dead skin off my hands and body as my main compulsion. We have to let go of what we are really obsessing over. I'd definitely youtube CBT or cognitive behavioral therapy, there are some great videos around. Hope it goes well.

 

I relate to you a lot, I have OCD with PMO addiction and trust me when I say that it is not easy. It makes things worse, luckily I don't have HOCD. I think that PMO had made my OCD 1000x worse, since I can remember I was a bit OCD, but after puberty and PMO addiction it has gotten way way worse. All the things you mentioned I can relate to, doubting thoughts, the need to constantly reassure myself, doing things in a perfect way, etc etc.

Don't let OCD win, just look at them as thoughts, don't give energy to the thoughts because they are just that thoughts, like moving clouds.
Let go, breathe practice meditation it really helps. Exercise regularly, eat healthy, read books on ocd.

Just know that from my own experience after long streak of NoFap for me even 30 days the OCD compulsions and thoughts decreased a LOT!. So keep fighting.

 

i've been there bro. After a long streak something like that still happens but is way weaker then before and allows me to be productive, find a job and a girl... al things i could not do before my reboot.

 

Cognitive behavior therapy works. I got over it with something similar. PM me for details if you like.