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Deleted Account · Feb 18, 2018

Hello NoFap. I am @Experienced_Rebooter.
I discovered porn at age 10. Initially, it was just pictures. As I go better technology, my addiction progressed.
At age 12, I discovered masturbation.
By then, I was deeply addicted and I wanted to quit.
I made countless attempts. The problem was that I didn’t know anything about quitting.
I have been attempting NoFap since February 2016, which is over two years.
I have had many failures and temporary successes.
During 2016, I had small streaks which were all below 30 days. I first made it 8 days and I was so happy. Then I made it 7 days. Following that, I kept having very small streaks that were less than a week.
After a few months, I began to get longer streaks where I didn’t masturbate to orgasm but I would peek at porn.
I had to rewire my brain to not need the visual stimulation which took a lot of work.
I made to day 25 in June and then relapsed. I was so happy. Then, I spent the summer vacation with a streak of around 20 days then a bunch of small streaks.
From then to around December, I had many small streaks. I began to binge after relapses thinking it will help me.
The problem then was that I linked self-improvement, particularly internet use, to my recovery. I would have a small hiccup in my self-improvement and would get discouraged and relapsed.
Finally, in December, I decided to go as long as I could no matter what. I broke my record and made it to day 31.
I got very strong urges for a few days and caved.
I then had smaller streaks of around 20 days.
Finally, I had a streak in March 2017 where I made it to day 40 and broke my record. That was one of best my streaks and I did so much.
Again, I had strong urges and relapsed.
Then, I began a streak at the end of April and mace it to day 90 in July. This was the pinnacle of all my achievements. I accomplished so much.
I left NoFap when I got to day 90. I thought that I would never go back to porn. The problem was that I didn’t have an exit plan and I wasn’t fully convinced in NoFap.
While I was visiting Europe, I relapsed.
Since then, I have made several failed attempts to quit. One of the problems was that I linked recovery with self-improvement like I did way back when.
Anyways, this is my story. As you can see, I am quite experienced.
This time will be different. I will quit no matter what because I am angry at what porn has done to me.

WhoCares101 · Feb 18, 2018

Welcome back my friend. I wish you luck on your return to nofap. Leaving nofap after awesome 90 day streak can definitely show people the importance of the community that is here to help. See it as an inspiration to others that you have return and help yourself and others learn from any mistakes you feel you made. Best of luck on your return.

Septimus · Feb 20, 2018

Experienced_Rebooter said: ↑

Hello NoFap. I am @Experienced_Rebooter.
I discovered porn at age 10. Initially, it was just pictures. As I go better technology, my addiction progressed.
At age 12, I discovered masturbation.
By then, I was deeply addicted and I wanted to quit.
I made countless attempts. The problem was that I didn’t know anything about quitting.
I have been attempting NoFap since February 2016, which is over two years.
I have had many failures and temporary successes.
During 2016, I had small streaks which were all below 30 days. I first made it 8 days and I was so happy. Then I made it 7 days. Following that, I kept having very small streaks that were less than a week.
After a few months, I began to get longer streaks where I didn’t masturbate to orgasm but I would peek at porn.
I had to rewire my brain to not need the visual stimulation which took a lot of work.
I made to day 25 in June and then relapsed. I was so happy. Then, I spent the summer vacation with a streak of around 20 days then a bunch of small streaks.
From then to around December, I had many small streaks. I began to binge after relapses thinking it will help me.
The problem then was that I linked self-improvement, particularly internet use, to my recovery. I would have a small hiccup in my self-improvement and would get discouraged and relapsed.
Finally, in December, I decided to go as long as I could no matter what. I broke my record and made it to day 31.
I got very strong urges for a few days and caved.
I then had smaller streaks of around 20 days.
Finally, I had a streak in March 2017 where I made it to day 40 and broke my record. That was one of best my streaks and I did so much.
Again, I had strong urges and relapsed.
Then, I began a streak at the end of April and mace it to day 90 in July. This was the pinnacle of all my achievements. I accomplished so much.
I left NoFap when I got to day 90. I thought that I would never go back to porn. The problem was that I didn’t have an exit plan and I wasn’t fully convinced in NoFap.
While I was visiting Europe, I relapsed.
Since then, I have made several failed attempts to quit. One of the problems was that I linked recovery with self-improvement like I did way back when.
Anyways, this is my story. As you can see, I am quite experienced.
This time will be different. I will quit no matter what because I am angry at what porn has done to me.
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Welcome back! I'm glad you're here.

While I understand that desire to get past 20 or 30 days, and the frustration of having a long period of abstinence and then lose it -- because I have been there -- don't underestimate the importance of what you have been doing.

I'll speak for myself. I went from porn being a regular thing in my life, having it on my computer all the time, accessing it daily, with few exceptions...

To where I am now: my life is not about porn or fapping. Yes, I last lapsed almost 50 days ago; and before that, it was a series of monthly lapses. Before that, I had about 18 months -- that was my first streak.

When you string together a lot of 10-, 20- and 30-day periods of freedom, that's not nothing. I'm not telling you to "settle"; I'm just saying, all that means something.

If I can help, let me know.

Full ahead · Feb 20, 2018

Experienced_Rebooter said: ↑

Hello NoFap. I am @Experienced_Rebooter.
I discovered porn at age 10. Initially, it was just pictures. As I go better technology, my addiction progressed.
At age 12, I discovered masturbation.
By then, I was deeply addicted and I wanted to quit.
I made countless attempts. The problem was that I didn’t know anything about quitting.
I have been attempting NoFap since February 2016, which is over two years.
I have had many failures and temporary successes.
During 2016, I had small streaks which were all below 30 days. I first made it 8 days and I was so happy. Then I made it 7 days. Following that, I kept having very small streaks that were less than a week.
After a few months, I began to get longer streaks where I didn’t masturbate to orgasm but I would peek at porn.
I had to rewire my brain to not need the visual stimulation which took a lot of work.
I made to day 25 in June and then relapsed. I was so happy. Then, I spent the summer vacation with a streak of around 20 days then a bunch of small streaks.
From then to around December, I had many small streaks. I began to binge after relapses thinking it will help me.
The problem then was that I linked self-improvement, particularly internet use, to my recovery. I would have a small hiccup in my self-improvement and would get discouraged and relapsed.
Finally, in December, I decided to go as long as I could no matter what. I broke my record and made it to day 31.
I got very strong urges for a few days and caved.
I then had smaller streaks of around 20 days.
Finally, I had a streak in March 2017 where I made it to day 40 and broke my record. That was one of best my streaks and I did so much.
Again, I had strong urges and relapsed.
Then, I began a streak at the end of April and mace it to day 90 in July. This was the pinnacle of all my achievements. I accomplished so much.
I left NoFap when I got to day 90. I thought that I would never go back to porn. The problem was that I didn’t have an exit plan and I wasn’t fully convinced in NoFap.
While I was visiting Europe, I relapsed.
Since then, I have made several failed attempts to quit. One of the problems was that I linked recovery with self-improvement like I did way back when.
Anyways, this is my story. As you can see, I am quite experienced.
This time will be different. I will quit no matter what because I am angry at what porn has done to me.
Click to expand...

We are much alike, my friend. From my general info you will see I am old on this (and getting truly old also, LOL). My first contact with Por was at the age of 6-7 when a teacher at school showed me and a few other boys a porn magazine...Man! that carved so deeply in my mind I could still tell you how a few of those girls looked fully naked... He harmed so badly, and from then on, the dopamine factory has sought for new emotions until now, so I have had a LOT of ups and downs on this PMO addiction
Ia m not charging the full blame on that man, since I have been fully responsible for what I have done from then on, but what I want to say is that this addiction is one of the most difficult to overcome, however we can do it, so welcome and keep on fighting.

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