NoFap making me a porn addict?

Sounds to me like you secretly want what you have denied yourself. Replace that 'must not watch porn' in your mind with something more positive, like, 'no one says I should watch porn.' See the difference? A lot of this really involves perspective, and an unhealthy one can sometimes have the opposite effect. So instead of thinking you are forbidding yourself to watch porn, tell yourself you are getting rid of something that has oppressed your freedom. This will help you feel better about your decision to quit porn, and watching it should become less of a kick.

 

IMO porn is not the problem; it is just a red herring. Are you having actual sex in the meantime too? If not, then what you're experiencing is just the effect of relapsing having temporarily strained your sex drive by abstaining from sexual gratification for a while. In other words, you just became somewhat or slightly more sensitive to sexual stimuli in general, but without having had your sex drive too degraded by that abstinence in the meantime so far**

(**Not to sound heretical against NoFap but superpowers obtained through abstinence are not really "sustainable" IMO. You either fap, have sex, or just end up losing sex drive simply due to the lack of feedback on it (what's often here referred to as "flatline"))

 

I can totally relate. Been thinking of stepping away from nofap too buddy. PM me if you want to chat