NOBODY REPLY PLEASE

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    macbookpro Fapstronaut

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    a new journal... ~~safe space for me only~~
    the reason why i'm asking no one to reply is because in the past, people reply to my threads and start fights about what i've posted and i get terrified of coming back to nofap.. and pmo... so please!! please!! do not reply to this even if you mean well!

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    i've been on this journey for many months now and i think i might have depression...
    It's always a cycle of feeling awful and wanting to feel better and then pmo and then feeling bad... we all know the cycle.

    i have exams in less than a week and i'm absolutely terrified about that and my future. i just hope i can defeat this.
    (i've blocked around 40+ porn sites on my phone and i still somehow manage to cheat - i've now added more since pmo today so i think this will keep me at bay for a while)

    until next time,
    pro
     
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    macbookpro Fapstronaut

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    I am amazed and disgusted at my own dedication to cheat I am not joking when I say I have added 40+ websites to my block list and yet....
    I manage to get to page 11 of google and find a website.
    So that was bad of me, but I will try harder next time to distract myself.. don’t give up..

    ———— replies still not welcome - just an update on my journey so I can look back on it ———
     
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    macbookpro Fapstronaut

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    Finished 2/11 exams today. Felt like I deserved it but I feel awful and disgusting. Feeling helpless against this addiction rn :/ I even went to the blocker and disabled it so I could watch on my phone :( hopefully the exams for the next couple of weeks will keep me occupied
     
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    macbookpro Fapstronaut

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    hello!!! i relapsed quite a bit after that previous post not good... but i went on a bike ride today and went on a walk a while before so i think exercise will be the new keep me occupied thing!!
     
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