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No hope

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by Matt21994, Sep 4, 2018.

  1. Matt21994

    Matt21994 Fapstronaut

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    Im 6 months into nofap but Ive been relasping lately for awhile and i havent even realized it, and when i say relasping i mean like i been watching porn without masterbating but i know its wrong. Anyway after i relapse i feel terrible, depression, suicial thought and anxiety. The thing is though is that i dont want to die i have so much to live for and i know i can beat this, but i lose hope that these thoughts will never go away. Can anyone help, i really dont wanna see a doctor, i need to know if someone knows how i feel and how then got though this.
     
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  2. Sayonara

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    Hey Matt, you're going to be okay. I've not got any experience in the realm of suicidal thoughts so I'm not going to try and justify anything to you, but I'm just writing on here as general support. Your life is important and you can give so much to the world once you come out of this rut. And the rut will end in time.

    Keep taking each day as it comes, keep making small positive steps. You can do it.
     
  3. Matt21994

    Matt21994 Fapstronaut

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    Thank you i really needed this support. This is why i joined the nofap community i needed support.
     
  4. Sayonara

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    Happy to chat at any time if you need someone to talk to. Just send me a private message, or message on here.
     
  5. Matt21994

    Matt21994 Fapstronaut

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    Thank i really appreciate that
     
  6. nef

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    watch this most inspirational for your condition

    ( i do not own this video )
     
  7. Matt21994

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    Thank you i really needed that video
     
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  8. nereo

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    Matt, you are not alone.

    I have never had suicidal thoughts, but I know what depression means. And I am pretty sure everybody here can understand what you mean when you say feeling terrible after relapsing.

    Do you know what I do when I feel discouraged? I just take a deep breath, I go in front of my mirror and watch myself directly into my eyes.

    Then I say to myself: “I believe in you. You won’t disappoint me. I am a human being, and like every other human being, I have the right to live and enjoy my life.” And I keep staring at me until I can literally feel the meaning of these words.

    This addiction is not part of you, you are much better than this.

    You are a warrior Matt, be brave.
     
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  9. Matt21994

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    Thank you i will get through this, this addiction wont conquer me
     
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  10. Toughen up man. Don’t let people fornictaing on your phone screen ruin your life. :)

    Go the gym. Or do combat sports. That’s probably the best advice I can give.
     
  11. Jbrks57

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    Hey Matt! Please don't be so hard on yourself. We are all in the same boat with you. We're all infected with an evil force called sin living in us that causes us to commit sin. None of us are perfect. Even the Apostle Paul wrote in his letter to the Romans about this. It's now part of the Bible... the book of Romans. Here's an excerpt from chapter 7 -
    "For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me."
    Romans 7:15‭-‬20

    Hey Matt, the Apostle Paul wrote a lot of the New Testament, and if he needed to be delivered from this infection of sin then we shouldn't be surprised to see ourselves struggling and failing with sin too. The good news is that Jesus the Son of God died on the cross as our substitute. He took our place and our punishment for our sins and whoever believes in Him shall not perish in Hell but have eternal life. So that's the awesome hope we have! At death we'll be separated from this sin infection and enjoy a glorious eternity with God the Maker of everything in this awesome universe! Until then we just keep battling this evil force in us with the help of God's Spirit and look forward to that day when we will be finally free from it!
     
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  12. Matt21994

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    Wow what an amazing story about paul. I had no idea about that, thank you for sharing that. Im gonna keep battling this addiction and i will win. Thank you for your story and motivation
     
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  13. Why are you feeling depressed after watching porn, I need to know more?
     
  14. Matt21994

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    For me i just felt gulity and so much shame for doing it becuase i knew i had to stop but it was so hard. It was depressed because wanting porn made me isolate myself from everyone so i had no friends and would sit in my room watching porn all day hoping my life would get better. Also are you new to nofap?
     
  15. Yes I am new to Nofap. I am trying to stop for religious reasons as I am a Christian. I'm sorry to hear that Porn had been destructive in your social life. I had no idea it could control people in such a way. I wouldn't call myself an addict because I am still able to do my normal daily activities without porn ruling my life. I just used porn to help me with getting aroused. I would just masterbate once a day for 20min. I'm talking to people at the moment who masterbate 4 times a day....that's a lot...
     

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