Newbie 26yr old - Femdom addiction,

Evening all,

bit of an embarrassing one!

Basically ive got a major addiction to what started out as femdom/ domination fantasies used to mbate, near enough regular when I was 14 if I recall to this stuff. Now 12 years later it remains!

Want to eradicate it completely! I actually managed to only mbate 3 times towards the last half of the year which were all by accident, edging etc. I lasted since July to start of Jan, so about six months longest stretch was 60 days or so...

It was due to a lot of stress I had financially and I just wasn't into it then, however I felt so much more alive, and better, more confident, manlier etc.

However I relapsed and my addiction where once dormant has now burst open and grown to the extent where it is seriously affecting/ destroying my social life, financial, work, home everything!

My fantasies have grown from femdom, to cdressing, to actually owning female clothes to being a slave, to being a sissy whore to be used. It is scaring the absolute shit out of me where my brain/ penis is leading me..

Ive even wasted money on those skank dommes online, to which I really do have to wonder wtf I was thinking.

I signed up to here because I just want to overcome this, hopefully find a girl, get healthy as my body is suffering badly and sort myself out, its making me incredibly depressed, Ive only ever been in one relationship and well, at present all my friends have relationships and I am still where I was idling along.

Hopefully this stuff works!

Thanks

 

thanks, well not a lot tbh, Ive deleted all those accounts etc, and focused on other things however it always comes back and bites me harder than the previous time...

I think its over then I get an open window and once that little bit gets in, its game over again..

 

Thanks... I dont know how the F i managed to last so long last year...

Since posting this thread ive relapsed well ive lost count! Makes you feel like utter crap

 

Well currently on a 65 day no orgasm/ ejaculation streak,

However for the last couple of days I've gone back into sissy porn and edged a lot!!!

I take it the counter is back to 0...

 

I have no idea, I have noticed when I feel lethargic when I don't go to the gym I feel more inclined to edge, I actually went over yday but stopped/ ruined and used my floor muscles to stop anything coming out... But still

Just edged now again as well to sissy porn, not only that I was actually planning on visiting a pro domme who would make me do forced bi and shameful to say it turns me on..

So fucking not right!!

I have noticed an increase in confidence towards girls however and more of an interest, on a few dating sites and talking to quite a few which takes my mind off it definitely.

 

Thanks I have read that that is really good stuff!

Hard especially with sissy porn just Google it and its there, all over twitter fucking everywhere!!

Counters back to 0 today though, edged and pretty much came no stopping this time,