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I am 21 and making progress on what is now my third break from PMO. I've never used a site for support or anything, but I'm used to rebooting my brain from porn and masturbation usually it comes from my depression pushing me to stop watching porn, but this usually happens when im single. This time around i went too deep into my addiction and started edging a lot almost on a daily basis to very unhealthy porn particularly submissive humiliation and hypnosis which have left me a small problem downstairs when im with my girlfriend. i've never had problems with my erections and i don't quite want to say i do now cause i still get them almost 3 times a day. The problem is in the middle stages of sex where it just goes away i believe its related to the porn because im not being stimulated during sex like i am during porn sessions. since ive realised what was hurting me im about 2 weeks clean of PMO and about a week on just MO. I've found that the best way to help my urges to touch myself have been meditation and guided meditation staying away from anything "hypnosis" these files and things i've found on the internet have hurt my brain a lot and i'm making the progress to fix them i hope to be able to post a success story sometime.

 

thanks i really appreciate and need the support right now, i've been using porn since around age 12 so it's been a long haul almost 10 years of porn. with very small breaks in between usually around 2-3 months from porn and never longer then a week from MO. im almost to a week without MO and i can say that the fantasies are starting to get really intense in the morning and at night. i feel porn isnt going to be as hard to quit as masturbating. but i feel like no matter what im going to hold off as long as possible. i keep telling myself its for the best but the other day it was getting so bad i couldnt even sit still, maybe im overracting to it but i hope it gets easier at least for these first 30 days, im done with porn. for sure. i can tell that in the middle of intercourse my brain reconnects to the porn pathways and i find myself having fantasies even in the middle of sex to be able to get to O. My girlfriend and i talked about my issue for the first time last week and i told her why it was happening mainly because of the porn addiction she was very understanding even telling she understood how hard it would have to be for me to just quit. I feel like there should be more people speaking out and telling people the side effects of porn. finding them out for yourself is not fun. touchy topic though i guess.