New to Forum & Journey

Hello all. First I want to say thanks for all the success/failure stories as it helped and inspired me to join this forum and I'm glad I found it.

Ok lets get to it. I'm a 31 year old male with what I believe is PIED. Like a lot of people on here it started with straight porn, then lesbian, then transwoman, then cross-dressers and even started to talk to trans/CD's on dating apps and get aroused and making plans to meet up (never did). I was a late bloomer so I started masturbating around 18. I had a GF 3 years ago and had no problems then but my last 3 sexual encounters with women over the past year and a half have been failures. I was able to get hard and aroused while making out and spooning/grinding but when it's time to put on a condom I instantly get soft and unable to penetrate. Each encounter was worse than the last because I was thinking about the last time I failed. I haven't had morning wood for a long while now (1 or 2 years).

Today marks day 11 of no PMO for me and I almost lost it. I got strong urges to talk to a trans so I found one on a dating app and texted for a bit and got aroused and horny and fantasized about hooking up with he(r). I eventually came to my senses and blocked the account. I didn't MO but looking at the pics made me think about all the transwoman porn I used to watch and be addicted to and was hard for a bit. Now my lower stomach/groin is in pain because my body was expecting PMO but I didn't give in.

Was this a relapse in that I fantasized looking at pictures (clothed) about having sex with this person? Thank you all in advance!