New member, reporting in

Hello. I joined a few days ago. Thought I'd make an introduction.

My main reason to join NoFap is due to the fact that I can't get aroused by 'normal' sex anymore. I don't have a girlfriend though. I guess the time wouldn't be right for it anyway. I've been noticing a first 'change' in late 2014. I noticed I couldn't get a stiff boner anymore from watching regular sex on the porn sites.

But it goes further than that. Occasionally I visit a prostitute, but I stopped doing that since I noticed that I totally don't enjoy the sex. I'm thinking it's also got to do with the fact that the sex isn't 'real' but that aside.

Nah, the real reason I have to use blue pills whenever I have sex with them is probably due to porn. When at home I'm lonely and often bored so I turn to porn. My empty feelings are craving satisfaction, which can be achieved by orgasm. I don't even enjoy masturbation itself, I hardly feel anything (same for during sex) I'm simply waiting for the climax.

When I had sex with prostitutes it was the same deal. I would know it's inside her, but I would hardly feel it. I've also got this 'what am I doing' feeling-thought during sex. The thought of having sex still kinda arouses me, I just don't believe I will get it to stay stiff anymore, and I'm really worried about it. Using the blue pill isn't a solution in my opinion, I'm in my early thirties.

I noticed I can stop watching porn, but I can't stop myself from masturbating for more than a few days. I really want to start abstaining from both, but I feel pretty helpless about it.

I will start reading the ebook, but I've got a feeling I won't finish the book.. like everything else in my life. I've got a real problem completing stuff. Especially when it takes too long and becomes difficult and/or gets boring.

Anyway, thanks for reading.