I was oblivious to the effects porn has had on my life now and since adolescence until very recently. I read a few articles about the dopamine effect and my inability to recreate that euphoria when having real sex. I now experience ED and am mostly unable to have sex with my wife. My sexual history is riddled with countless partners from everything to one night stands, internet hook ups and prostitutes. I'm a decent looking guy but reached the point where sex with good looking women was too normal. I devolved to where I was more attracted to overweight or ugly women. Porn always starts the obsession that becomes uncontrollable. Sometimes I wish I never have sex again as deviant sex or fantasizing about is the only thing that arouses me. I don't want to cheat on my wife any longer or make others sad by lying to them.