New here and sicker than ever

You need a fresh start.
Move with you're mom and forget your old life.
Socialise with new friends. Get a fresh job.
Get yourself motivated to spend more time outdoors in your spare time, even if it's just walking to start off. Go to a beach or climb a hill or mountain daily.

Go cold turkey on the weed even though it's infrequent, you don't need that shit in your life. All it will do is hinder or reset your mental fortitude.

Visit churches or chapels more often, make it a habit to just visit and sit in for a couple of mins every week, think about things, pray if it makes you feel comfort.

Use it as a reminder of what you want in life and what you want to come from.

As for porn, stop from now, set yourself a goal, small to start off.
Bigger as you go further.

Good luck.

There's no shame in leaving everything behind in search of a new you.

 

Yep, a new chapter awaits. Start attaching the pain you feel to your current habits. Lock the habits in a mental room and say to yourself that opening that door means more pain. Consider accountability. I am considering N F Premium for 10 dollars a month. Give it some thought. Visit N F daily to remind yourself that you are not alone and as you begin to dry out you can start giving support to others. One day. One hour at a time. If you feel the urge to relapse it is because your emotional state is disturbed. Maybe consider an actual counselor as well?

 

You may feel bad today, but you are not sicker than ever. Realizing that you are sick and hurting is a lot healthier than just carrying on day to day. You have turned a corner to healing.
Now the bad news. The work is just beginning. Problems do not just evaporate. It takes more work to solve a problem than it does to live with one. If it didn't, problems would just evaporate into easy perfect solutions, and they do not. They hang around and fester.
Reading between the lines, somebody has been a bit hard on you, and you have picked up the trend. Who cares if your bed is well made every day? Or if your room is neat and orderly? If it is yours, you can keep it like you want it. And, don't worry about your hairline. Men lose hair because of excess testosterone; you could take estrogen supplements to slow the loss, but you might have to deal with boobs.
I'm all in favor of waiting for marriage, but if you are serious about marriage, you might want to start working towards that end. First you will have to know yourself and do some healing. NoFap is a great start! You will also have to go where there are eligible possible mates. Right now, forget the porn and get social. Stay strong. You can do it where you are or in Florida. The where does not matter much. You do matter.