New Fapstronaut Aborad

Hello,

I apologize in advance for the lengthy post and its graphic content, but I need to be as clear as possible in order for you guys to get a clear picture of the situation. Also, if there is a more appropriate section for this message, please, let me know. I am looking for as much help as I can get.

I am a 30 yo man. Not long ago (about a month) I had no idea NoFap was a thing. I obviously knew what 'Fap' meant, but that was about it. While on YouTube looking for videos about ED and people's experiences and struggles with it, the word 'NoFap' came up in one of them, so I looked it up.

I have been (subconsciously) suffering from ED for as long as I remember, which goes back to my first sexual encounter, about 9 years ago. Prior to that, I guess I was too young to notice anything, if indeed there was anything to notice at all. The reason why I am saying this is because, around that time, I was masturbating just like any other teenager, i.e. sexual arousal, boner, masturbation, ejaculation. All normal.

It was during my first date that, and at this point, I think it is fair to mention that I am gay, my date, after giving me a BJ, went on to put a condom on my penis that I lost my erection. He didn't go for another try and we just carried on kissing, cuddling then mutual orgasm. It was nice and I didn't feel alarmed I mean, these things could happen to anyone, especially for a first-timer, right?

Anyway, years went by without me worrying about anything, as I was still in the process of getting used to my newly-embraced sexuality after a four-year struggle at high-school. Not much dating, but a fair amount of porn consumption and masturbation. I used to maturbate almost daily, once or twice, sometimes none, and not always to porn, my record being 4 times in a single day (I hit it like 4 times.)

About 5 to 6 years ago, I started noticing that sometimes, my erection goes away while masturbating, and other times, I feel aroused and in need to masturbate, even when my dick is soft (flaccid.) So, I just start squeezing until it gets hard, and then I start masturbating. Also, when I lose my erection, I keep masturbating until it's hard again, and everytime this happens, just right after I have my erection back, I climax after a few seconds then the erection dies again. It's like hard, then soft, then gets hard again just for the sake of releasing semen, then soft.

Being alone and having time, this did not seem so much of an issue for me, but when I started dating, everytime, once we're in bed, I get an erection during the first moments, while we kiss, cuddle and hug, and then it goes down and doesn't come back unless I use my hand and keep squeezing and stroking; when the orgasm is close, I get hard, come, then go soft. It is, more or less, always the same scenario.
I can't seem to keep an erectin, and this is why, for those who are familiar with how gay sex works, I have been only bottoming. I am (topping-wise) a virgin and got dumped several times for not being able to perform in bed. For the record, I happen to have very strong nocturnal erections, and morning wood, but never had a wet dream before.

I am not sure if this is a porn/masturbation-induced ED, or if it is related to some underlying childhood trauma, or an overdue coming to terms with my sexuality, but the thing is I have ED and I want it cured, hence my presence here.

Thanks for your time and attention and sorry for any errors, English isn't my mother tongue. Any kind of feedback, remarks, suggestions or advice would be most welcome, as I am getting really desperate.

Other than that, I am left-handed I work at my hometown university as a careers advisor, love reading very much, drawing, watching movies/TV shows and writing.

 

Thanks.

As far as my NoFap knowledge goes, I started the journey a month ago, but would like some insight on what to do, and what to avoid, for optimal results.

I have quit smoking altogether, sugary drinks and also junk food. Started working out almost daily and would love some suggestions on more stuff to do, my aim being to cure my ED.