Never Again Vol 4

Discussion in 'Uncategorized Reboot Logs' started by Relationship Rebooter, Dec 21, 2018.

  1. Relationship Rebooter

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    Day 1
    - Full Relapse after a 26 day streak of no PMO I failed because I let my guard down looking at snaps w revealing images. I feel happy I know what failed. I never made it that far next time I’m going for 60 days. Wohooo!
    No more letting my guard down. Porn leads to issues I don’t want.

    -Trouble Performing in the Bedroom.
    -Exploitation of Sex Trafficking
    -Misteatment if Women
    -PIED
    -Brain Fog
    -Anxiousness
    -IRRITABILITY

    Benefits ;
    -5 Second if Numbness.
     
  2. Relationship Rebooter

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    Day 5
    -The Streak is going good I feel really good. Urges are there but honestly fuck this porn shit. It’s amazing and feels good for 5 seconds but then the constant side effects are too much. I relapsed. I really won’t relapse this time. I believe it I’ll get through this I’ve said it many times before but this time is serious I can’t do this shit anymore. My life is in a rut right now I’m debating finishing college bc of the price of attending. Doing what makes me happy. I really wanna get back into fitness bc it makes me happy. I believe I’m gonna quit college. Parents won’t like it but I’m tired of being not happy to my full potential. I go for my license next month really hectic sorta right now in my life I need all the energy both mentally and physically. No time for porn weighing me down.
     
  3. 4ndris

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    very well said bro! I'm proud of you, that you have realised it's a fight you must fight every single day, and after a while less often, only when the Urge comes back, but trust me with practice, it get's easier! :)

    How many years of your collage left?
     
  4. Relationship Rebooter

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    Thanks bro! I hope the best for you as well. I have about 5 years left. I was kinda of in a mood when I typed this happy yet rebellious lol. It’s more of a money thing but I am going to apply for a new job which grants an amount of money which will help and keep me in college. What about what’s your story.
     
  5. 4ndris

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    what do you want to know? :D
     
  6. Relationship Rebooter

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    NoFap Journey ? How’s your reboot if still in progress
     
  7. 4ndris

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    well, thanks for asking, to keep it short.. yes, still in progress, because I do it serious now! (otherwise it does not make that much sense = thinking of full reboot :) ) .

    Day 8 in hard mode:
    Almost no urge to watch P, while still having some imaginary situations about real girls (what was one of my biggest trigger), but I tell myself to focus, read something meaningful instead and stick to the discipline, so that my past, future and present self can be proud of myself. :)

    A big-big help to me, what I learned from the Dalai Lama himself (in the book: "The Art of Happiness" :D ): Before every decision you take, ask yourself: Is this going to make me happy? (over the long run)

    some of my answers related to nofap:
    1) P: definitely not
    2) M: only a temporary "relief" , but not cool = not
    3) getting to know THE GIRL, who is on the same frequency really good vibrations etc., marry her, live long together and do tons of tantra: yes! :)
    so I'm working in myself in order to accomplish the latter, and neither P or M help. fact. :D

    Think about this method! ;)
     
  8. Relationship Rebooter

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    Day 10
    -Urges are managble nothing crazy. However I’m constantly having dreams about having sex. My spouse is on her period so it put a hold on our sex life nothing drastic. I’m actually on pace to beat this thing once and for all. Last Streak was 26 days and I’m gonna beat it. I’m logging in every 5 days because I don’t wanna be on this forum 24/7 and obsess over beating it. It shouldn’t be anyone’s main activity in life. Rather focused on something else. Can’t beat an addiction while always thinking about your addiction.
     
  9. Relationship Rebooter

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    Day 14
    - We made it to two weeks. Those who commit to NoFap without having sex and no PMO aka HardMode are the strongest of people. Throughout my journey I’ve had regularly had sex. However due to timing with my gf period and availablilty for sex I’ve gone 2 weeks HardMode. I viewed a clip of porn accidentally sounds stupid but it ended being one of these social media spans which cut to porn as a haha when people tag their friends thinking it’s a different video. Urges are presenting themselves clearly. I searched a pornstar before clicking images or videos I came to realize what the fuck. I literally went auto pilot mode and did that. Not saying it was out of my control but my urges almost took over. I said not again. That’s how I always relapse is an innocent censored picture to explicit pictures to little clips of porn to full blown porn until I relapse. Slippery Slope I beat my urge I did not give in. I’m glad I beat it I would’ve felt shitty. Day 14 celebration!
     
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    I’m officially off Instagram bad shit is on there I’m giving it up. A meme page showed a clip of porn censored but still I made a decision to watch the 15 second clip. Made me fight so damn hard to not relapse. I was eating dinner and I wanted to go to the shower to relapse so bad. My brain tried to rationalize “just relapse you seen porn”. “Get a clean slate, you relapsed might as well get it all out”. Fuck that. I’m shaking and anxious now. I literally caught myself standing ready to put me food aside to go jerk off but I didn’t. New found strength. I refuse to keep doing this shit. That’s how I relapsed last time just viewing porn and then ooh might as well crank it all the way. Nope! Not undoing all the progress I’ve made. Day 16 on my way. This is definitely a big ass slip up.
     

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